You're probably laughing if you're reading this.
I know. It's unbelievable to you but... it is the truth.
I swear it is.


It's already hard for me to admit this.
I think... I've lost the confidence I once had in myself.
The one that allows me to make friends with ease, the one that allows me to speak my mind.

I may be loving my body now but inside... I'm not loving myself.
I desperately try to seek a hiding place to hide this weaker side of me.
That's the reason why Hawaii is appealing to me.
One of the lines from Sarah Marshall in Forgetting Sarah Marshall, said something about people who visit Hawaii are unable to face up to reality.

True or not. It's up to the person.
Maybe. That's why... That's just why I want to go to Hawaii.
To escape my reality.


Where did she go?
That girl who is known for her confidence and her daring personality. The one who was bold enough to stand out and say, "Hey! I'm different and I don't fucking care!"
Where is she?


Right now, all I want to do is get back to loving me & being strong.
I'm learning bellydance so I can get back my confidence. I'm exercising each day so that I can gain my confidence.

I want a better me. For The Present. For The Future.
Just a better me.


I guess. I have to face my fears sooner or later so I still have to be prepared.
Thanks Ami. (:

Lighter note, developed a character & part of the plot already. (:
Its not going to be another chick flick. It's different this time.