The webcam is my new best friend.

I've just discovered the existence of webcam and I've only just realised how fucking awesome it is! It's so awesome that I wish I could marry it. I'm only lacking photobooth or else it'll be so cool.

I want a Mac just for photobooth.

Stupid reason. I know.

I'm broke this week. I didnt even save up because I'm hungry like shit.

And despite my recent Mother care clothes. I am not pregnant. No. Not. :D

I feel fat and I just got my period. Today.

After it skipped another month which happens so often that I dont bother anymore. Why should I? I'm a V. It's odd to be pregnant right?

Today was Maths. I can do it but our faci today was shit.

He gave me a black face & he didnt even teach us anything. I could have died.

And suddenly, in class. I'm a maths wizard.

Kelvin is another maths wizard too. He first, me second. *thumbs up sign*

Xiao Jie is shi fu because she read the instructions and taught us about excel. -.-'''

Maths. I'm suddenly so good at calculating especially in class!

Awesome.

Btw, speaking of class. I never realised this until now but my classmate, Bronza is actually taking the same course as I am. The chances of it happening is very slim so who knew.

Oh & I've got my eye candy already.

He's totally bishie material because he's really pretty just like that and today... We were so damn fated can. I love it that we are so damn fated. :D

I've also got an after school eye candy. I meet him on some days & he's got blonde hair. He's totally like an ah beng but that very japanese beng which I loooooove.

Japanese beng ah? Not really la. He's got that hair & the japanese look. I love.

The girls are going. Not again.

Ami is going, finally. She's back to being herself and not staying in the shadow of her stupid broken heart.

Waffles are delicious & you know. I'm feeling happy.

Canoe on Sunday with the class! Xiao Jie's bbq on Saturday!

Eventful can.

And I need to practice and sing and play my instruments just because of you..

I hate it when guys I don't know think I'm hot just because of my race.

It's stupid. Really.

Let's close our eyes and run from here to there.
You & me forever chasing after the bus.
You'll pull my hand & I'll hold on tight.




Met up with my wife on Sunday & went shopping. Us broke people got accesories and I got myself a t-shirt. And unfortunately, for us broke people... Spending has become a problem already.
No money. ):


The days have passed. Don't feel like talking about Monday, so let's skip that.
Science on Tuesday was stupid, skip that too.

Today?
I decided to join wakeboarding & soccer. Although, I think I'll just stick to wakeboarding because I feel like it. Soccer. Soccer. Soccer.
Sigh. Why do you look at me in that way?
Sigh.
Wakeboarding. I choose you.
Still considering Replug because got auditions. Drama? I'm not so sure.
YES IG? Something like YE. Depends.
InVogue. Joining that too.
Sigh, Jap Ig looks fun. Loli. Loli. Loli.
I miss wearing a loli & those days.
Just looking at all those pretty lolis, make me feel awkward & I feel so lost.
Should I? Or not?


Tmr's maths.
I'm not so sure.



The emo bug caught me. Throw me down the drain will u?

It's SUNDAY! :D
There is school again tmr!
I cannot wait!

I love my class. I actually have my own clique in class. We love waffles!♥
Every first break, we'll go down to get the waffles together. Actually, it's pretty obvious who is in our waffles clique.

Then there's the midget time together after school! Together with the other CCC people.


The drama has started. On the first week. *rolls eyes*

I don't want to be involved. I'll be the neutral party because that's what I do best. Until I am forced to be involved, then I'll involve myself. Aii hates disputes. D:


First week has been pretty tiring. I nearly couldn't wake up on Friday & I spent my entire Saturday sleeping. I woke up at 9am. Fell asleep again at 12nn. Woke up at 4pm. Went back to sleep at 10pm.

That's how tiring it is. If this is the first week, I wonder about the other weeks. *sighs*
I'll get used to it.



Anyway, I don't know what to wear next week. So, I'm going shopping with WIFEY today~
Town & Kino.
I have no idea why I'm going to Kino. I just want to look for mags.



BTW
CHINNNNNNNNNNNN~ I saw my A CHORD'S ALBUM! It's selling in Sg! :D
I'll be getting it soon! ♥




So far, I'm feeling alright. I won't die. No. Not just yet.

We passed the fourteenth. You & me. Our hearts no longer together.
I remember what I wrote on that very day & how bad I wanted it to work. Yes, I did. No regrets then. Do I have any now?


I had maths today which was rather cool because I actually like it. It's a first in my life to actually like maths because... I usually hate Maths and I can't stand a minute of it but today... was so different because... I FOR ONCE LOVED IT!


Algebra. Duh.
My favourite. Hello.


Plus I'm pretty close to my team members. Why? I know Kelvin from RC5. He's a fellow Vitagen btw! *thumbs up* Firdaus, I've known for a couple of years through madrasah although I've never ever really spoken to him. Plus, Xiao Jie is from my day one team. So, the only person I'm new to today is Hazwani.


Afiq, Tina, Firdaus, Xiao Jie & I lunched at Causeway Point today because there's no presentation. How awesome is that? Oh, we met some of Fir's & Afiq's friends. They look familiar. I think it is because they live around Choa Chu Kang or something. I should stop this man. Everybody looks familiar to me now. Weirdly.
Oh & as usual, once again... I had to say that my father is Chinese. HAHA.


After school, we CCC people once again slacked at W4. And once again, I spoke Malay. Weird. And I SLAM again. Sigh.........

Oh & I kicked some balls! And accidentally flashed my panties to the whole fucking world.
It's only when one of the guys said, "THEN EVERYONE STARE!" Then I realised. oops. =X
Aiya. Fuck la. Bikini at Sentosa. This is nothing yo. But can see my cellulite la. I don't like. ))):


Something happened this morning. My heart flew. I'm not in love. Sigh, not. Not when some people are so fake. When are they ever going to be real?

I've learnt to be extra careful in choosing because... Of what happened. I get hurt too much. It's not going to happen again. I'll do all I can to stop this from happening.

Haiyaaaaaa.




EMOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
So much for new year's resolution to unemo myself. I can't help it. Can't.


Some CCA fiesta or SLA fiesta thingy next week.

Not joining dance. Fadhil & I planning on joining replug but what can I do? Sing only. I can probably only sing & play guitar which I don't really know how to play. (My guitar got hole sia. NB!) Or what, rap + sing + add other language? HAHA. Aishah is only good at adding other languages. Jap? :D I like.

Touch rugby? I don't mind but I'll be tanned and sweaty which my mom hates. *rolls eyes*

Jap? I like it and I know so much about it because it is my interest but... I want to leave my past behind.

Then join what?????????? ):


If this was NP, I would join NRA without a doubt. Oh & Ambs! :D



You know. If Maths gets fucking boring, I might as well have gone to CEP at NP. Sighhhhhh.



My second school. HAHA! Rubbish.


Its so weird that I keep on walking uphill to W4 and complain.
You imagine if I had gotten into NP's FMS/HMS. I got to walk a lot more right?!
And this is funny. I accidentally called Food Haven, Makan Place. -.-'''
HELLO!!!!!! WEIRD RIGHT?
NP and RP! Makan Place???


Oh & Subway at RP! :D
Not halal! ):
Cookies!



Anyway, I've been lazy for the past few days.
BABY's birthday is coming. I heart him.




Haiyo. I NEED TO SHOP SHOP SHOP LAAAAAA! ):
No clothes.
Ask mummy to buy but all I like she say she dun like. FUCKKKKKKKK

Then today, she say my dress too short & she wants me to wear leggings next time. I don't want la! I like = I wear! HAH! :D
Not indecent what. Cover my butt = okay! :D
*thumbs up*
Where got short????? Actually short la, but then again. Everything is also short on me la. -.-'''
So no diff. And I don't care. HAH!



Might be selling my bomber jacket. ):
Cause it's FUCKING SMALL!




I feel like getting Dr.Martens & dying my hair purple. You like? I like!
Then I feel like getting a blazer, some reptile leggings & some sexy tanks! :D
Awesome right??




Okay. Time to sleep. Past my bedtime already & my parents are nagging.
WHY AH? WHY ARE MY PARENTS SO DIFFERENT FROM ME & MY BROTHER??
I sometimes feel like my brother & I are adopted because of this.
My bro & I are so rebellious & care-free. (I'm very la.)
And we can sleep extremely late & everything but they can't. Sighhhhhhhhh.
Teenagers now.



BTW, Waffles tmr? Set set?? :D


Oh & I've got a new fav song of the moment.
I only heard part of it but after I heard it at home... I kinda cried.
The words bring back memories.




Autumns Monologue

Oh why can't I be what you need?
A new improved version of me
But I'm nothing so good
No, I'm nothing
Just bones, a lonely ghost burning down songs
Of violence of love and of sorrow
I beg for just one more tomorrow
Where you hold me down, fold me in
Deep, deep, deep in the heart of your sins

I break in two over you, oh
I break in two
And each piece of me dies
And only you can give the breath of life
But you don't see me, you don't

Here I'm pinned between darkness and light
Bleached and blinded by these nights
Where I'm tossing and tortured 'til dawn
By you, visions of you then you're gone.
The shock bleeds the red from my face
When I hear someone's taken my place.
How could love be so thoughtless, so cruel?
When all, all that I did was for you

I break in two over you, oh
I break in two
And each piece of me dies
And only you can give the breath of life
But you don't see me, you don't
(x2)


I break in two over you, oh
I break in two over you, over you
I break in two
I would break in two for you
Now you see me
Now you don't
Now you need me
Now you don't






And I can't think of anybody else
Who I hate to miss as much as I hate missing you

I seriously like my classmates. They're very fun and all but sadly, I'm not in the mood for any of their fun & games.

Down with a high fever. Thought I could get through the day just like that but I guess not.

My temperature is like 39.1 degree & my doctor told me to take an MC but I had to just say no because this is only the first week of school.

I guess I'm wearing my sweater & my hoodie & my jeans & my covered shoes tmr. Plus, bringing a bottle of extremely hot water.


It's cold now. Freaking cold.




Anyway, I'm kinda happy today. (:
Saw ****** today.

I'm in school now.
So far, it's boring & my throat hurts like fuck.
My eyes hurt too and just an hr ago I decided to do remove my eyeliner because one side disappeared already..



So far, I hate it. )":







edit: okay. i actually like my class. :D
they make the pain bearable. and well, thank goodness for that. :D
i just need to get used to life. haha.

Aishah currently wishes she was slimmer & if she could loose 10kg.

She hates the way she looks now because she feels fat.

Her parents don't allow her to not eat anymore & she can't exercise much because she will end up sweating.

She wants liposuction. ):

Ok. thanks. bye

Another meaningless entry

Was I high on drugs or was it beer?
The answer is neither.





I guess the real reason as to why I went crazy and so high was because I needed to let it all out. The stress has been killing me for the past few months. I just needed to let go. Drinking and smoking is a big no no for me and I've decided to stop shedding tears over something so small. So, I guess dancing/singing is the only way out for me. At least it beats being suicidal or losing my sanity. If this is the way to forget, to heal and to smile... Then so be it. I would rather keep my sanity.



When the songs I needed to hear played, I had to stop myself from breaking down. So, I just started putting my heart into screaming those songs out. I can't do the crying anymore. No, I need to face it and not break. I won't be fragile any longer.




Sigh, I've got so many entries like this. All writing about the same thing but in the end, I can't even do anything about it. Tried so many things just to make it work and yet...


I can't even face them without thinking about the past. I can't even look in your eyes without falling apart inside. I grit my teeth and try my best but it is never good enough and I don't even know why! Am I really that emotionally unstable?



I wonder if tomorrow will be different.
Will I move forward or will I sink again?



Nobody knows. I just gotta keep my head held high. And although last night, has made my heart feel lighter, I'm not sure if I can keep going on. But, I gotta try. I got to.

Why can't it be that way it was? Cause you were my homie, lover, and friend

Day 2 of Camp today.

I finally said goodbye to my dream school & have decided that my life here would be just as awesome. Goodbye. Do I really have to say that bloody irritating word? I don't like it. Why should I like it? It's goodbye! ):


Anyway, this post is dedicated to them.
My SLs from Red Camp & my beloved friends from Red Camp especially the Vitagen people.


Hey SLs & fellow campers,

I'll never forget you guys and those three days we spent with one another. (Or for me two.) Those days were fun weren't they? Enjoying the free KFC and delicious food. Meeting new people.

Oh! Did anybody remember Zoukout? Wasn't it a blast? Dancing and ummm.. Grinding.. I remember that we went wild. *looks at Hairul* With some taking off their shirts. Also, there was a part where.... Hehe! *smiles at Ati & the other people who know*

And the Sentosa Outings where I made so many new friends. I wouldn't have met my beloved Cenninchevitans and neither would I have known Mus, Azie and the rest if not for the outings. I'm sure the thing that most of us remember would be the mass dance in the middle of Siloso beach.

How can we forget Mobbers? Dancing outside Taka around Christmas season, promoting NP. I can still remember the weird red guy who suddenly popped up behind me.

The Open House? The final performance, the mass dance all around NP's campus? And how can I forget the camwhore sessions!

These things... I know I will never forget. (:

It saddens me to know that I'm not in NP but hey, RP ain't that bad after all. Oh well.

This is not the end of our friendship. Let's continue communicating with eachother via FB or msn or whatever. Thank you for making such a huge impact in my life.


Love, Aishah!

Today was FOP day 1 but I won't blog on it just yet. I'm too lazy to blog or write anything because I don't have the mood to write.

I'm actually too exhausted and my eyes are hurting because of the contact lenses.


Anyway, this post is very special because it contains an important message to one of my favourite actors/singers in Taiwan. I've mentioned how much I love him before and I will still say it again. I love him a lot.

I know that he is trying to learn English and I apologise because I do not know how to write in Chinese. Therefore, this is all I can do for him.

He's touched my life so much in the past few years.
And this is for him...

To my dearest A CHORD aka Xie He Xian

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
CONGRATULATIONS ON THE RELEASE OF YOUR ALBUM!
LOVE YOU LOADS! :D

生日快乐，祝贺释放您的相册。我希望这将在新加坡，我希望你会来看望这些天。所有在您的职业生涯最好的！我会永远支持你！








I guess that's all for today..
I'm busy trying to figure out my characters before I write anything more.

I love chilli padi! :D



Anyway, I think 123 and 456 are pretty hot. Haha.
Sheeeeesh. Aishah, back to your old ways again. Well, at least that is better than before.
Psssstttt. Ami, I'll tell you all about it soon.

CAMP! CAMP! CAMP!


One whole week of camp. I still can't believe it.


Okay, so speaking of camps. Yesterday, there was the DCID camp!

I was actually late. No big deal there because you're probably used to the fact that I was late. However, I actually decided to cab over to RP. My cab fare is $15 okay. That's not good. Plus, I was still wondering if my cab driver knew anything about taxis and driving at all.

Me: Republic Poly
Uncle: At Clementi there ah?

My eyes widened in horror. The driver good ah. Want to send me go NP.
When I said Woodlands, he could even ask me how to drive there and which exit to take. -.-'''
He nearly alighted me at Causeway Point, but I directed him to RP.

And the best part was the payment.
When I asked him how much was the total.
He proceeded to press the button on the meter but he deleted the fare.

It was extremely horrifying. He can still press press press some more.
Finally, I decided to pay him $15 because I was already running late. He could ask me if I wanted change?!
Like, hello! You didn't even know how much was the cabfare and yet you want to give me change?! Might as well ask me not to pay you and say that the ride is for FREE!

Okay. Okay.

The cab ride wasn't really that much of a horrifying ordeal, there are people who have probably suffered worse than I have.


Back to Camp.


Nearly got lost & mixed up with the Hospitality people. Lucky, I saw some of the leaders holding a CCC sign.

When I got to the location. Was pretty hard trying to find it mind you.
I was all alone. Duh.

And I just went to anyhow get a seat and made friends with the people sitting around me.
It's pretty easy to talk because the first thing they'll ask is.... About my race!
As if that was hard to guess...
It's usually the first question I'm asked and it's usually some sort of an ice-breaker for me. So yeah. Cool right?


I found out that my course has 120 people. If I heard it correctly, that is.
Also, I need not feel old because a lot of people are the same age as I am!
EIGHTEEN!


Anyway, the leaders are pretty cool. One of them looks pretty familiar though. I don't know why. *shrugs*


There was this introduction of the different IGs (Interest Groups) under CCC.

There's the Student Ambassadors, Write IG, Speak IG, Photo IG, Japanese Cultural IG & the Cheerleading.


I was smsing Ami that I was scared of the Japanese IG because I have my reasons to be. Although, that is the IG that I can be considered quite pro in.
You talking about Cosplay, Loli, Jrock, Visual Kei? Sure can. No problem for me.
OHHH! You know on the powerpoint slides, they showed GAZETTE! :D
Then, people were saying about putting X Japan next time. They should put ALICE NINE or MYV or Gackt.
Okay. Okay. Fangirl here.


I doubt I will join Cheerleading either because...
I can't flip. I'm not light. I feel very uncomfortable with letting people touch my butt or any part of my body. (See. I told you I'm innocent! And SHY!)
The clothes part... Ummm. I think that's not a problem for me but it will be for my parents. After all, judging from what I wear at Sentosa, that covers more of my body.


Student Ambassadors.
Thinking about it. Main reason I feel like joining them is because of NP's Ambassadors. *falls of chair* I want to take part in stuff like Red Camp etc. Wait, RP don't have Red Camp. ))):
Sadly.


Photo IG.
Also another maybe.
It is one of the most happening IGs but.... I've been doing photography for all my life. Secondary school, Photography Club... Plus, I've been in front & behind camera for so long already so I don't know. I want to pick up a new skill other than photography.


Speak IG.
Another maybe.
Speaking in front of a crowd has been no problem for me. Doing presentations and everything.. It's just something I'm so used to because I've been forced to do presentations all the time. Plus, if you were to ask me to speak in front of an audience. I probably would do it without feeling fear anymore...


Write IG.
I guess almost everybody will join this. By the way, the people in my course speaks really good English. It is so different from the usual kind of English back in school. Plus, all of them are fabulous writers. (I think. It makes me ashamed to look at myself.)



If YOU were in my shoes, which would you pick?

Decisions are so hard to make.

Anyway, I totally malu-ed myself by admitting that I think Hafi is hot (compared to other guys I used to know). Somebody asked me if I know him and of course I know him. We were in the same class during lower sec & blah blah blah happened. I didn't admit he is hot. I did not! *continues living in denial*

Okay, so they decided to group us according to our facis.
My faci is Sarah, so I was grouped with Euodia, Elizabeth.
My group! Is cool.
We're somehow a gang because there's one guy we call Lao Da, another we call Da Ge, Da Jie and one guy we call Sister!
I guess we bonded super fast!

Btw, I found out I do know somebody from CID.
One of the leaders happened to be my tuition friend in Mendaki! OH YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!! I REMEMBERED! KHAIRUL, our tutor, used to work in RP too! OMGGGGGG!

And...
Well. Syakirah from RC is also in CID.
The other day, I did msn and ask her what course she got into but I went offline. Then, both of us thought we were in diff courses but then... We're in the same course!

Okay. Then, we had lunch and as usual... An introduction to the people in our group.
We had to answer a question anybody asks us and my question is the question I know I will be answering for the rest of my life. The same question over and over again! -.-'''


Okay, then there was some team bonding games. My team under Sarah is team 6.
We were grouped together with Team 5 & 7 (can't rmb)


We had to do a bunch of challenges and we were supposed to do a skipping challenge where we had to skip like this...


Except... We had to fit 15 people and jump together & jump successfully.

So first, some of us had to try & I decided to just go!
It was pretty hard because the rope is long and it was hard trying to get both turners to work together.

Anyway, I went and I jumped 5 times. Non-stop! Good achievement considering I don't do sports! :D

Anyway, when we all did it together. We managed a total of 3! :DDD


Oh. & there was this challenge where we had to over turn the mat. And all of us, 24 ppl had to squeeze!
And. Seriously. The FLH event prepared me for this because I learnt how to balance on my tippy toes & endure squeezing.

And there were lots of other games.


Overall, the day was extremely fun.


Can't wait for Wednesday. (:

In two hours time, it would be tomorrow.

And a few more hours after that, it would be DCID camp!

Right now, I'm feeling slightly nervous and excited because it's going to be a fresh new start for me and I certainly don't want to make a bad impression or I might just end up feeling left out for the whole of my poly life. Plus, I know so few people in RP and I can't possibly rely on my friends for year two and three. I need to make friends and get on with life. Be the social butterfly I once was. How hard is that? Apparently, it is extremely hard.


I haven't even socialized properly within the past couple of months. Facebook does not count as socializing. To me, it's just a fast and easy way to be a busybody and do some catching up with friends without going through the hassle of meeting up. And anyway, there are a couple of people who I refuse to add on facebook just because I don't like their faces. Oh, sorry if you are one of them. And another thing, I won't add you unless there is a good reason for me to. Like for example, requests for RC. Sure, I'll add you. If not, no way.

Okay, so maybe. Socializing wasn't a problem for me back then but what if.... What if I am so bad at it now that nobody wants to be my friend?? T^T

That would be harsh.


Anyway, I have a hell lot of things to settle and get done. However, most of them are optional so it doesn't really matter. Like, getting my hair dyed etc. Doesn't matter much.

Oh! And I'm still tanned. My face is peeling and it looks uneven but if you look at my body. Oooh! I feel like some brazilian model with olive skinned. If I were slimmer and sexier, I'll feel like some sex goddess. I love my legs like this. They're so sexy! They need to be toned but the colour is the sex. Used to have legs like this but then I didn't go out under the sun, so I went pale!



Okay! Enough.

Something to kick start my new life with.
The bag I've been wanting to get from NUM!
I don't know how many times you've heard me say I want it and I'll get it. And now, I finally have it!

Sponsored by my parents! Love them!



$79.90 instead of the usual $129!
Bought it at Expo!

Okay. I know. It's not that chio but it's definitely nicer in real life. Picture doesn't do justice to it!


Oh & Ami got hers too! :D Yayyyyy! Finally!
We've both been going... I want the NUM bag and now we finally got it.
The new bag pack actually quite cute but this... suits me 10x more! :D




Btw, I also got a new bra set at expo! Lingerie!
And my mom got her new oven! Yay! Oven's coming on Sat, which means... I CAN FINALLY BAKE AGAIN! :D



So many things to be thankful for. I'm thankful because now...
My life doesn't suck.



I should get some sleep or I'll look like a panda tmr.

SENTOSA WAS HILARIOUSLY FUN!






And now I'm tanned! And my nose is red. However, like my skin tone now. Love it more than my pale looks. Mainly because I love my shoulders! My boobs and butt are white while the rest of my body is obviously dark. I think I look sexy like this. HAHA. Not.
I like the face because now... I can don't wear make-up for a while. Natural blush, natural tan! :D
I swear this is the best I feel and look in ages! :D
Except for the fats and eye bags. HAHA.



Anyway, doesn't really matter if it gets worse because... My tans only last for at most 1 month and then, fair skin again. My skin sheds really really fast and very often. It sucks sometimes but I'm cool with it.



Like for example, my nose starts peeling every two weeks even if I haven't been under the sun for a few months. And it is super weird.



Okay. Enough of my bimbo moments.


Went to Sentosa with the usual 4A people. Steph, Jacq, Jave, Hakim, Jenn & Wei Guang.




And..... We had an encounter with foreign workers.


No. I'm not being racist but it just happened.


Apparently. There were 3 babes who were sitting underneath the coconut trees while all of us were playing in the water. All of us noticed the babes. Strange isn't it?
And later on we noticed a dark and lone figure standing behind the coconut trees.

Obviously, it's not one of the girls and neither was it a ghost. Hello?! Broad daylight! And no ghost would stand and pose behind a coconut tree. Or a better word would be camouflage and hide behind the coconut tree while watching the world or rather babes.

So, all of us were actually watching and talking about him from where we were playing. When this guy, suddenly took out a camera.

Now what is wrong with taking pictures of the scenery you ask? Oh. Nothing.

However, what he did that disgusted all of us was. He took a picture of the babes. See the something wrong there?

All of us were gossiping SUPER LOUDLY when the girls decided to move forward. None of us actually knew that we were gossiping THAT loud until the boys went up to the shore. When they came back, they told us they could hear us. Seriously, malu. HAHA.

Okay. Back to the pervert. The reason why I call him a perv is.... After the girls moved forward, he went and stared at us and he walked towards the bushes which were in front of us. It's not exactly on the shore but yeah. You get what I'm trying to say don't you.

For a while we thought he had disappeared but apparently... He was hiding behind the bushes. Doing GOD knows what! And when he heard us, he ran and walked off. Disgusting.

You don't know what he was doing. Do you?


Then there were these 2 other foreign workers who went to the same bushy spot.
We were joking that you might see the bushes move about when I made this very stupid sound about their supposed sound effects. Apparently, I didn't realise that I made a face when doing making the sound effects so it was seriously FUNNY! (I think somebody is going to be shocked when he reads this! Too bad for you.)


I think the two guys did the same thing the other guy did so no point talking about it but all of us were seriously making fun of it.

Oh & Jenn shouted PUNDE (sp?) super loudly because we were trying to shout at the foreign workers but none of us knew anything in their language except that. Funny ah. Why do we only know the vulgar words?


Btw, I'm trying not to reveal their race but from that single word. I think you know what is their race already.

And I apologise if I do sound racist but I don't think I am. I just think that it's disgusting that some people actually do that. Although it is pretty common to have perverts but I think that we, as women have to be more aware of our surroundings so such things do not happen to us.



Anyway. Apart from the foreign worker incident.

We burried Hakim! And he had boobies & a dick which grew a plant. And a mermaid's tail. Wah. We are so creative okay~

Awesome right?


The guys did the dick. The girls did the boobs. While, I am of course... In charge of photography. Bad skills, sorry. Could not see clearly due to the sun.



Oh. And we stacked each other. We tried to do 3 people but failed. And finally. We tried to have the girls on top of the guys. Still fail. Or rather, I failed. While watching me climb onto Hakim. It was seriously scary.


Firstly, I'm not used to it. Plus. My feet somehow ticklish.
Then. While climbing. I pulled his hair.
Wei Guang was helping me and telling me, HOLD HIS FACE NOT HAIR!
I start pulling the ears.
Then after that. I accidentally twist his face and I didn't even know lor.



They were saying it's scary to watch me. Jenn also said, "I don't want to let you sit on me."
Wah, I damn pro. Next time, if I get into scary situations like war or something. Can climb onto enemy and kill them by twisting their necks!



We actually had a "fight" between the girls. HAH!


Oh & we saw some of the previous CSS finalists like Geraldine & I don't know their names.
We were actually looking over there and wondering if that is Geraldine or not. HAHA.


When she removed the shades then we realised that it is her. No autographs of course.


We finally left to Vivo where we ate lunch & I saw Rasyida! :D
My ex-colleague from Isetan! Miss her. I'm probably going to visit them at Isetan next Tue before school re-opens!



And afterwards we went around Toys R Us searching for a float to sleep on & a blow-up pool. I forgot the other word for it. But I just call it a blow up pool! (The word blow-up came to my head because I suddenly thought of blow up dolls. Eve is going to laugh at me because of this.)



Actually, we wanted to go bowling after the entire thing but after the freaking long busride from Vivo to Bukit Batok, Hakim & I decided to go home. Exhausted la!


And now my body is aching & tanned. I like. :D


More photos on my FB. :D



P.s My green coolcolor contacts expiring at the end of this month. I don't know what brand to buy now. Should I get brown or turqoise or my favourite sapphire? Big eye or no big eye? Actually. Big eye also no difference on my eyes. Can you believe Chin Ming didn't even realise I was wearing big eye lenses? Ahhh. ):
Anyway, cannot buy Geo anymore.
Meaning must go Korea or Japan to get. Next year lor.
Save money. I heard from Ami, that the ox! fords there super cheap la. Everything is cheap. Haiya! I want moolah. Go shopping.

Another update!

My new top from Affairee is here. It's pretty but it's plain. I don't really care la. I'm wearing to school anyway. Plus, quality is like Punk Star & design also but it's cheaper. I need more clothes.

Thank goodness there is camp next week! YAY!

I can't wait because being at home is killing me. Plus, my computer cannot work. My dad pulled out the wire, so right now... I'm being smart and typing on my laptop. This is what smart people do alright. ;)

The story continues from Friday.

So the entire weekend, we were spared from boredom. Or at least I was.
They didn't really do much to punish my brother who in the end, also disobeyed them. He doesn't listen to my parents mainly because my parents aren't strict with him.
Like when I disobey them, my punishments are like ten times worst okay. Unfair.

Anyway.
My brother, trying to outwit his entire family... Pretended he was sick on Monday mornin, and of course my mother was blind to it. So she let him sit at home. Hah. Stupidity.
He pretended to be sleeping when my parents called. While all the time, he was actually DOTA-ing. Stupid. really.

Then, his school called. Expected.
My brother told me not to pick up. Initially I had wanted to answer but no, my brother had to tell me not to pick up. So, obviously... Since you can't reach the homephone, the school would have to call the handphone. And they did.

My dad was at a course so he came home VERY early.
And guess what, he managed to find out ALL ABOUT my brother's ponning. Stupid brother. Pon school also don't know how to pon properly.

Sigh.
Then, his school is banning parents letter for him. So, have to go get MC.
As if MC is that hard to get for my family.
And my mom was saying, his school actually quite strict leh.
I'm rolling my eyes there because.
In Kranji, my whole of 4 years... Parents letter is not allowed okay. -.-'''

You compare. Please.

Then my mom was saying I pon school a lot. Got meh?
In Kss, I never pon. I pon but she don't know.
So yeah.


Frustrated la.
D:
Can tell that my parents are biased alright.
Now, I'm being punished for something I didn't do. This is stupid.

THE GRADUATE
畢業生

I finally finished watching this!
It's really different from all the other dramas I've watched.

Firstly, it's a 5 episode miniseries. It's just 5 short films and none of them are related to each other. However, these 5 films actually have a moral behind them and it is definitely not one of your typical idol dramas. Well, there aren't that many idols in this drama. You'll probably recognise A Chord in one of the films. Once again, he's just a supporting character.

Each story is unique and it has a very good storyline. It does have a plot & I think that the drama is really suitable for teenagers because it teaches us about things in life such as friendship etc.


I really love watching it because it is very real and these things do happen everyday.


Episode 1- Lonely Game

Xiao An & Xiao Die are best friends who travel to Taipei to become hairstylists however, something happens that causes Xiao Die to fall out with Xiao An. Xiao Die calls it betrayal and in the end, something happens to Xiao An which causes Xiao Die to regret.
The episode emphasises on not knowing what we have until it's gone and how painful that feeling is when we find out that we're never going to have it back.


Episode 2 - Black Summer

It's summer vacation and the male lead intends on trying out something new so he finds his cousin who is in a gang. So, things happen such as fighting with a rival gang and there is another loss in the drama.
The episode teaches us about blind courage and the unthinkable consequences that comes with it. Sometimes, we think that it's cool and everything but we don't realise that we can get hurt and even loose our own lives.
Although it's set to be a fictional story, I think that it is one of the most real stories so far because these things do happen. (Such as joining gangs, gangfights etc.)
Btw, A Chord appears in the drama.

Episode 3 -Fortunately We're all Still Here

The storyline is slightly similar to Black Summer but it's more about taking risks. Frankly speaking, it took me quite a while to understand what it's talking about.

Episode 4 - Mimi's Wandering Mind.

Mimi is a girl who lives in a rather broken home. Her father hits her mother for money and hence, Mimi ran away. She ended up meeting A Hao who does care for her but ends up "being her pimp." She is then sent to something like a girls home where all the other girls have problems at home etc. Initially it took Mimi some time to get used to the environment but slowly she learns to let go.
I like this one the best. I guess it is because I like the storyline and what happens in the end. It's quite sweet actually.

Episode 5 - Waves Of Nature

This is one story I bet most girls could relate to.
It's about popularity and backstabbing and all that bitchy stuff. It's the simplest story to understand maybe because it does happen to every girl.



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I am not sure when my next update will be but I can tell you that I might loose all my freedom because of my younger brother. I am unsure whether I'll be allowed out or even online on weekends. I lost what I worked so hard for and that is the freedom I now have. If I'm going to go back to square one, then it's good that school will be starting very very soon. I'll count down.

I hope you see the truth this time and stop putting that burden on my shoulders. I wish you could realise just how hard I've tried and what a fool you are. This time, I can only rely on myself to fight this battle and get through it. He's not there for me now, so I'll have to do this alone.
Why can't you see it? How hard I've had to fight just so that you will accept me and treat me like a real person? It's been so hard. Too hard.
All the times I've tried to be the person you want me to be. It's not who I am but I gave up everything just for you. Why? Why can't you just see it? Will you stop being so biased now? Open your eyes. Just please. I beg of you.

OUTING! BOWLING & LASER QUEST!

Miss these people so much♥ . The last time I met them was.... Two weeks ago & that was less than half of them. Each time I meet them, something happens! And it's a whole lot of fun.

This time, we went bowling & laser quest at Bukit Gombak! :D
Awesome!

I actually only got ready at like... 12.30pm when we were supposed to meet at Gombak Mrt at 1pm. I left my house at 1.15pm okay! Wanted to take the train but decided to bus there instead since it is more convenient for me plus it stops directly in front of HTNS. :D
Reached there quite late but not that late because the bus was for me.

Bowled first.
Incredible man! I improved. I think.
Second time at this so I'm a noob.
And I ended up breaking a nail. My nails were short okay & they broke! Plus it's very deep so now, I have to keep short nails. Why am I being bimbotic?
Injured my thumb too. It's bruised but not too badly.
Now I really really understand how he felt when he had to play for me & himself. Hehe.
The scene of the bowling alley and the seats just brought back memories but it's alright. I had fun bowling.


We only played one round because .... I forgot the reason.

Anyway, we went back to the first floor to play laser quest but apparently, some people already booked it. So we had to wait until 5pm. Hence, we decided to go eat first! FOOD! At Alif.

Today's Mee Kuah was not as nice as the previous Mee Kuahs. ):
I felt that it was lacking spices and flavour. I don't know. Maybe it's because I burnt my tongue the other day so food doesnt taste the same to me.


After eating, we went & walked back to HTNS!
Laser quest! :D
We played for like 20 mins.
10 ppl max. ):
Okay. So, we split into teams.
Red team - Amirul, Haziq, Syukri, Azie & me!
Yellow/Green team - Dama, Natasha, Mus, Hairul, Alif

Best part of the game was the fact that we decided to play in total darkness.
I totally forgot I'm night blind (cannot see in the dark) so when it was total darkness, it was really super bad for me.

So, when we were walking in & it suddenly turned extremely dark. It sucked! I couldn't even see. So Haziq and Amirul were like leading us at first. Azie and I were at the back.
And because I couldn't see...
I held on to Amirul's shirt and walked. (Does this bring you flashbacks of what happened then?)
The pulling of shirt. Lmao.
Well, it was for a short time only. What did you expect? Run around pulling his shirt? Sure got hole later.

Okay, so the rest of the time, it was super dark. I kept banging into Azie. Sorry.
And the person we bumped into the most of the time is Hairul and Natasha. I think Hairul was like everywhere. Super noisy because when he popped up, he would make so much noise.

I think I had it real bad because I banged into the wall while running.. D:
Lucky I have removed my braces and was wearing my contact lenses or else they would probably break.

I think this proves I'm very bad at laser quest because I was attacked like... most of the time. Still, my second time playing so who cares right? Anyway, it's better to have fun.

Oh & btw, our Red team won! :D
How cool is that?

For 20 mins, I probably had a good workout. I feel slimmer already! ;D

This was the photo when they went for the second round, with Atiqah, Faizal & their friend. (I forgot the name) Sexy right?

This one even sexier. :D
I think we're all high on the ANTM drug so we decided to go Top Model on this one.
Love the photo! ♥
Wanna be on top?
I like to call this one Laser Quest Next Top Model.



Sad because I had to leave early again. Particularly because of my parents. ):
Sian. Will probably only enjoy freedom in the next few months.
Can't wait for next outing.

Wo De Cuo - B.A.D





飞机已离开机场
你选择了前往你的方向
不再迷惘
忘了我们爱的过往
忘了我给你的伤
学会坚强
从前的我不懂你牺牲多大
为我失去朋友不讲
还放弃了所有梦想
觉得没怎样
不会将心比心去想
让你慢慢慢慢失去了希望
能不能够再给我机会好好的爱你
我会仔细的聆听
你对我说的一言一语
我会学会去控制脾气不让你伤心
对你好好的去珍惜
请你相信我的心还是爱你
我想再重来一次
回到过去弥补你的伤
没那种事
怎么做才能够停止
后悔竟伤你如此
不再放肆
为何总到失去才懂的难过
当你在我身边的时候
总是为我默默守候
都是为我的错
错过这难得的拥有
就让你爱我的心慢慢溜走
能不能够再给我机会好好的爱你
我会仔细的聆听
你对我说的一言一语
我会学会去控制脾气不让你伤心
对你好好的去珍惜
请你相信我的心还是爱你




Translation:

The plane has left the airport
You’ve chosen to move forward with your own direction
No longer lost in delusion
To forget of our love’s past
To forget all the pain I caused you
To learn to be strong
I didn’t understand how much you’ve sacrificed
You kept silent when you lost your friends because of me
On top of that, giving up all of your dreams
You felt it was nothing
Can’t compare who has the bigger heart
You slowly let yourself lose all hopes
Can you please give me another chance to love you better
I will pay close attention to
Every word you say
I’ll learn to control my temper so as not to make you sad
I’ll cherish you better
Please trust that my heart still loves you
I’d like to have another fresh start
To go back to make up for all the pain you got
Guess there’s no such thing
What should I do so this will stop
I have only regrets for hurting you like this
I will no longer bring you devastation
Why is it always that you don’t know what you got till it’s gone
When you were at my side
Always taking care of me silently
It’s all my fault
For I’ve failed to keep such precious possession
That is to let your loving heart towards me slowly go away
Can you please give me another chance to love you better
I will pay close attention to
Every word you say
I’ll learn to control my temper so as not to make you sad
I’ll cherish you better
Please trust that my heart still loves you





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This song has touched my heart.
From day one when I first heard it until now.
Then, I was fourteen & it was strangely sent to me by CG (I used to dislike him & like his friend). Unexpected.
Even stranger is that I used to talk a lot on the phone to him and I am not known for long conversations on the phone.
Then, a few days ago...
I suddenly decided to listen to the song on imeem and to find the lyrics.
And just then, I cried because almost every word described what I was feeling deep down.



I'm sorry but those words will never be enough for us anymore. Moving on is always hard and even if I try my best, that might not be enough. I have to believe. Believe that these wounds will heal.
I wish I had fought on that day, to tell you that I still care but what was wrong with me?
Why did I let myself let you go? Deep down I know that we would never work out because we were from two different worlds and our parents would object to us being together. So, why is it so hard for me?
Maybe it's because you were the first real relationship in my life.
Yes, the first cut is indeed the deepest.
But I'm trying as hard as I can. T o be strong.

HAPPY APRIL FOOLS DAY!

I didn't even realise it was already April until I got tricked around midnight. Then again, would most people realise that it's already a new day after the clock strikes twelve? I don't know. I just know I was still thinking it is March until I got tricked.

Worst thing is, I got fooled thrice. Am I an idiot or what? Oh well, like what Ami said, I'm really gullible.


Anyway, I can't even recall how I spent April Fools last year and the previous years. I don't know why. Must have been because I rarely celebrate April Fools Day and my pranks are hardly successful. You must be a Mandy to pull a successful one. (Flashbacks of all of Mandy's pranks back in school come to mind)

I think last year. I most probably woke up to a Good Morning & Happy April Fools sms. Nothing much. Thought of it as a normal day.


Speaking of pranks...
I'm lucky Mandy hasn't tried one on me this year. I miss her.


I remember in Sec 2. She bought this farting cushion which makes a LOUD fart sound when you sit on it. She brought it to school and I didnt even realise it.
So, after we greeted the teacher. She decided to slip it on my chair and me being extremely blur, sat and it and there was this SUPER DUPER LOUD FART SOUND.
Of course I straight away knew who was the culprit. Actually the whole class already knew. Wth. -.-'''


I think the only prank that really succeeded was the one me and Mandy prank called someone. HAHA! I can't tell you who that someone is. Later she read my blog and this post, I die.

All I can say is...

We pretended to find her number on the net & we pretended that we wanted to get to know her. And we were trying to be all creepy. HAHA!
And all this was done on Orchard Road. -.-'''

AWESOME!


Okay. My life isn't funny at all...



Anyway, just stay happy okay! :D



p.s I really don't know why I'm blogging now.