We passed the fourteenth. You & me. Our hearts no longer together.
I remember what I wrote on that very day & how bad I wanted it to work. Yes, I did. No regrets then. Do I have any now?
I had maths today which was rather cool because I actually like it. It's a first in my life to actually like maths because... I usually hate Maths and I can't stand a minute of it but today... was so different because... I FOR ONCE LOVED IT!
Algebra. Duh.
My favourite. Hello.
Plus I'm pretty close to my team members. Why? I know Kelvin from RC5. He's a fellow Vitagen btw! *thumbs up* Firdaus, I've known for a couple of years through madrasah although I've never ever really spoken to him. Plus, Xiao Jie is from my day one team. So, the only person I'm new to today is Hazwani.
Afiq, Tina, Firdaus, Xiao Jie & I lunched at Causeway Point today because there's no presentation. How awesome is that? Oh, we met some of Fir's & Afiq's friends. They look familiar. I think it is because they live around Choa Chu Kang or something. I should stop this man. Everybody looks familiar to me now. Weirdly.
Oh & as usual, once again... I had to say that my father is Chinese. HAHA.
After school, we CCC people once again slacked at W4. And once again, I spoke Malay. Weird. And I SLAM again. Sigh.........
Oh & I kicked some balls! And accidentally flashed my panties to the whole fucking world.
It's only when one of the guys said, "THEN EVERYONE STARE!" Then I realised. oops. =X
Aiya. Fuck la. Bikini at Sentosa. This is nothing yo. But can see my cellulite la. I don't like. ))):
Something happened this morning. My heart flew. I'm not in love. Sigh, not. Not when some people are so fake. When are they ever going to be real?
I've learnt to be extra careful in choosing because... Of what happened. I get hurt too much. It's not going to happen again. I'll do all I can to stop this from happening.
Haiyaaaaaa.
EMOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
So much for new year's resolution to unemo myself. I can't help it. Can't.
Some CCA fiesta or SLA fiesta thingy next week.
Not joining dance. Fadhil & I planning on joining replug but what can I do? Sing only. I can probably only sing & play guitar which I don't really know how to play. (My guitar got hole sia. NB!) Or what, rap + sing + add other language? HAHA. Aishah is only good at adding other languages. Jap? :D I like.
Touch rugby? I don't mind but I'll be tanned and sweaty which my mom hates. *rolls eyes*
Jap? I like it and I know so much about it because it is my interest but... I want to leave my past behind.
Then join what?????????? ):
If this was NP, I would join NRA without a doubt. Oh & Ambs! :D
You know. If Maths gets fucking boring, I might as well have gone to CEP at NP. Sighhhhhh.
My second school. HAHA! Rubbish.
Its so weird that I keep on walking uphill to W4 and complain.
You imagine if I had gotten into NP's FMS/HMS. I got to walk a lot more right?!
And this is funny. I accidentally called Food Haven, Makan Place. -.-'''
HELLO!!!!!! WEIRD RIGHT?
NP and RP! Makan Place???
Oh & Subway at RP! :D
Not halal! ):
Cookies!
Anyway, I've been lazy for the past few days.
BABY's birthday is coming. I heart him.
Haiyo. I NEED TO SHOP SHOP SHOP LAAAAAA! ):
No clothes.
Ask mummy to buy but all I like she say she dun like. FUCKKKKKKKK
Then today, she say my dress too short & she wants me to wear leggings next time. I don't want la! I like = I wear! HAH! :D
Not indecent what. Cover my butt = okay! :D
*thumbs up*
Where got short????? Actually short la, but then again. Everything is also short on me la. -.-'''
So no diff. And I don't care. HAH!
Might be selling my bomber jacket. ):
Cause it's FUCKING SMALL!
I feel like getting Dr.Martens & dying my hair purple. You like? I like!
Then I feel like getting a blazer, some reptile leggings & some sexy tanks! :D
Awesome right??
Okay. Time to sleep. Past my bedtime already & my parents are nagging.
WHY AH? WHY ARE MY PARENTS SO DIFFERENT FROM ME & MY BROTHER??
I sometimes feel like my brother & I are adopted because of this.
My bro & I are so rebellious & care-free. (I'm very la.)
And we can sleep extremely late & everything but they can't. Sighhhhhhhhh.
Teenagers now.
BTW, Waffles tmr? Set set?? :D
Oh & I've got a new fav song of the moment.
I only heard part of it but after I heard it at home... I kinda cried.
The words bring back memories.
Autumns Monologue
Oh why can't I be what you need?
A new improved version of me
But I'm nothing so good
No, I'm nothing
Just bones, a lonely ghost burning down songs
Of violence of love and of sorrow
I beg for just one more tomorrow
Where you hold me down, fold me in
Deep, deep, deep in the heart of your sins
I break in two over you, oh
I break in two
And each piece of me dies
And only you can give the breath of life
But you don't see me, you don't
Here I'm pinned between darkness and light
Bleached and blinded by these nights
Where I'm tossing and tortured 'til dawn
By you, visions of you then you're gone.
The shock bleeds the red from my face
When I hear someone's taken my place.
How could love be so thoughtless, so cruel?
When all, all that I did was for you
I break in two over you, oh
I break in two
And each piece of me dies
And only you can give the breath of life
But you don't see me, you don't
(x2)
I break in two over you, oh
I break in two over you, over you
I break in two
I would break in two for you
Now you see me
Now you don't
Now you need me
Now you don't
And I can't think of anybody else
Who I hate to miss as much as I hate missing you
I remember what I wrote on that very day & how bad I wanted it to work. Yes, I did. No regrets then. Do I have any now?
I had maths today which was rather cool because I actually like it. It's a first in my life to actually like maths because... I usually hate Maths and I can't stand a minute of it but today... was so different because... I FOR ONCE LOVED IT!
Algebra. Duh.
My favourite. Hello.
Plus I'm pretty close to my team members. Why? I know Kelvin from RC5. He's a fellow Vitagen btw! *thumbs up* Firdaus, I've known for a couple of years through madrasah although I've never ever really spoken to him. Plus, Xiao Jie is from my day one team. So, the only person I'm new to today is Hazwani.
Afiq, Tina, Firdaus, Xiao Jie & I lunched at Causeway Point today because there's no presentation. How awesome is that? Oh, we met some of Fir's & Afiq's friends. They look familiar. I think it is because they live around Choa Chu Kang or something. I should stop this man. Everybody looks familiar to me now. Weirdly.
Oh & as usual, once again... I had to say that my father is Chinese. HAHA.
After school, we CCC people once again slacked at W4. And once again, I spoke Malay. Weird. And I SLAM again. Sigh.........
Oh & I kicked some balls! And accidentally flashed my panties to the whole fucking world.
It's only when one of the guys said, "THEN EVERYONE STARE!" Then I realised. oops. =X
Aiya. Fuck la. Bikini at Sentosa. This is nothing yo. But can see my cellulite la. I don't like. ))):
Something happened this morning. My heart flew. I'm not in love. Sigh, not. Not when some people are so fake. When are they ever going to be real?
I've learnt to be extra careful in choosing because... Of what happened. I get hurt too much. It's not going to happen again. I'll do all I can to stop this from happening.
Haiyaaaaaa.
EMOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
So much for new year's resolution to unemo myself. I can't help it. Can't.
Some CCA fiesta or SLA fiesta thingy next week.
Not joining dance. Fadhil & I planning on joining replug but what can I do? Sing only. I can probably only sing & play guitar which I don't really know how to play. (My guitar got hole sia. NB!) Or what, rap + sing + add other language? HAHA. Aishah is only good at adding other languages. Jap? :D I like.
Touch rugby? I don't mind but I'll be tanned and sweaty which my mom hates. *rolls eyes*
Jap? I like it and I know so much about it because it is my interest but... I want to leave my past behind.
Then join what?????????? ):
If this was NP, I would join NRA without a doubt. Oh & Ambs! :D
You know. If Maths gets fucking boring, I might as well have gone to CEP at NP. Sighhhhhh.
My second school. HAHA! Rubbish.
Its so weird that I keep on walking uphill to W4 and complain.
You imagine if I had gotten into NP's FMS/HMS. I got to walk a lot more right?!
And this is funny. I accidentally called Food Haven, Makan Place. -.-'''
HELLO!!!!!! WEIRD RIGHT?
NP and RP! Makan Place???
Oh & Subway at RP! :D
Not halal! ):
Cookies!
Anyway, I've been lazy for the past few days.
BABY's birthday is coming. I heart him.
Haiyo. I NEED TO SHOP SHOP SHOP LAAAAAA! ):
No clothes.
Ask mummy to buy but all I like she say she dun like. FUCKKKKKKKK
Then today, she say my dress too short & she wants me to wear leggings next time. I don't want la! I like = I wear! HAH! :D
Not indecent what. Cover my butt = okay! :D
*thumbs up*
Where got short????? Actually short la, but then again. Everything is also short on me la. -.-'''
So no diff. And I don't care. HAH!
Might be selling my bomber jacket. ):
Cause it's FUCKING SMALL!
I feel like getting Dr.Martens & dying my hair purple. You like? I like!
Then I feel like getting a blazer, some reptile leggings & some sexy tanks! :D
Awesome right??
Okay. Time to sleep. Past my bedtime already & my parents are nagging.
WHY AH? WHY ARE MY PARENTS SO DIFFERENT FROM ME & MY BROTHER??
I sometimes feel like my brother & I are adopted because of this.
My bro & I are so rebellious & care-free. (I'm very la.)
And we can sleep extremely late & everything but they can't. Sighhhhhhhhh.
Teenagers now.
BTW, Waffles tmr? Set set?? :D
Oh & I've got a new fav song of the moment.
I only heard part of it but after I heard it at home... I kinda cried.
The words bring back memories.
Autumns Monologue
Oh why can't I be what you need?
A new improved version of me
But I'm nothing so good
No, I'm nothing
Just bones, a lonely ghost burning down songs
Of violence of love and of sorrow
I beg for just one more tomorrow
Where you hold me down, fold me in
Deep, deep, deep in the heart of your sins
I break in two over you, oh
I break in two
And each piece of me dies
And only you can give the breath of life
But you don't see me, you don't
Here I'm pinned between darkness and light
Bleached and blinded by these nights
Where I'm tossing and tortured 'til dawn
By you, visions of you then you're gone.
The shock bleeds the red from my face
When I hear someone's taken my place.
How could love be so thoughtless, so cruel?
When all, all that I did was for you
I break in two over you, oh
I break in two
And each piece of me dies
And only you can give the breath of life
But you don't see me, you don't
(x2)
I break in two over you, oh
I break in two over you, over you
I break in two
I would break in two for you
Now you see me
Now you don't
Now you need me
Now you don't
And I can't think of anybody else
Who I hate to miss as much as I hate missing you
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