Is it just me or what???

Yours truly has started thinking that Dai Yang Tian looks slightly Aaron Yan-ish..
Maybe it's those eyes.
Maybe it's those lips.

This photo especially.From this angle only. Haha.



However, after I took more looks... He doesn't really look as good as Aaron Yan. OOOH.






Let's compare....

Hmmm. Okay. My dear Aaron looks younger and not as man as Dai Yang Tian. Duh.
Actually, they're about the same age. Aaron's younger by 2 yrs.


Okay. I think my eyes are deceiving me. I haven't caught much of MIT. Currently waiting for the 13th episode to be subbed.
Yes, the Guilun scene was awesome! (:


JY to the both of them!

Results were released and I honestly don't feel too good about it. I got into the Engineering Common Programme and honestly, I don't think I'll do too well in Engineering. Well, I'm considering getting into Audio-visual technology after the first semester. Basically, because that's my interest and I'm better at that than other stuff.
My parents are against it though. Then again, why wouldn't they be?
However, I think I should just try it. I may not be as good with machines and tools and such. I know, my funeral will be pretty soon because I'm just bad at Maths and stuff. Still, if there's something about me that I realised... It's the fact that I actually like Maths. Yeah, I don't do well at it but it's mainly because I choose not to & I have always hated working hard.

This is a secret of mine. I'm afraid of studying because...
I studied so hard until I fell very sick for a week & my brain nearly fried. This was back in primary school.

After that, you've never seen me study.
My textbooks look brand new. I swear. Except for the occasional doodles, I have never used them for homework. Mother Tongue is an exception.
They're only wet because of the rain & half the time, my books are in school. Meaning, I don't study.
Hell. I only studied in Sec 4. The last 2 weeks before Os if that's helpful..

I guess that's my mistake.
Not studying. Not working hard enough.


Lazy too.


Sighs.
Really not feeling well.
Sick. Sorethroat, had gastric last night. And now I feel like puking once again.

Don't let it happen again. Please.

And after all that I went through, I realise... I want to continue writing and write like I've never written before.


And perhaps continue with Maths in my future poly. Wherever I get into.


And to you, all the best too (:


Thanks to all those who've been supporting me & telling me not to give up. (:
Thank you.



I need my rest. Really. Stop the nightmares.
This girl needs her rest.

i cant live when living is without you

Engineering.
bleh.
Really.
Engineering.

You can watch me DIE.


god. ):

Moodswing. Moodswing.
I'm not in a good mood. ):
Firstly, my skin is breaking out.
Next my skin is dry. And it's itchy. Really itchy.
And to make things worse, my eye is swollen.
&& I hate my hair. Should have left my hair like that. In the picture. So nice right? Ughh.

Currently, I don't know whether to wait until my hair grows out or just chop it all off.
I really want long locks. Uhh. Bimbo post. AGAIN. Damn it.

Yes. I think I'm dehydrated. I need sleep & I need to clear my head.
Plus, my breathing is getting from bad to worse. ):
I went to the doctor to get medicine, he tells me my lungs are fine.
So whats wrong with me?
I CAN'T BREATHE! D:


*grim face*
It's not much fun really. Plus, I think my hair is fucked up although it isn't really that fucked up.
I'm insecure. BOO. ):

Why can't I have a boyfriend at this point of time to tell me, YOU LOOK FAB?! ):
Rant rant rant! ):
Then again, I don't like it if he tells me I look fab when it's obvious I don't.
*screams* D:


Me isn't in a good mood.

And tmr, posting results will be out.
I hope I don't wake up at 5am after receiving a sms that apologises because I am not posted anywhere. If this happens again, I tell you, I'm going to get a parang and go down to Orchard Road and chop off people's balls!
And then I'm going to go to jail & live there for the rest of my life. Either that or I'll get hanged. 8D

I prefer the getting hanged part. Then, I'll write one long entry saying Goodbye Cruel World. ;D
I'm crazy. Yes. No. Whatever dude.

Point is, if I do get another sms at the same time & with the same words as last year, I'll be pissed. I could even murder somebody.
My dream course is out of my league already so, just pray I'll get into NP. :)
If not, then SP. Lucky I didn't put TP because if I did, there is a stupid chance of me getting in & I hate TP. Not the ppl but just the ppl. ):
*re-reads last sentence*
I'm being idiotic. *punch walls*

I'm craving for Subway. ): KL KL KL! UHHHHHHHH!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YR

Happy Niu Yr!

It's the year of the Ox! (:

According to many fortune tellers, the yr of the Ox will will be a great year for us in terms of economy & general affairs.
The after effects of the Rat year will still affect us for some time but of course, we'll get through them. We just need time & we really need to work hard.
So, let's all work hard because I'm sure the economy will improve! :D


I'm not so sure about the goat people like me though.
Apparently, the sheep/ram/goat is the conflict animal of the Ox.
Fortune tellers believe that it will be a difficult year ahead of us. This year, is not that favourable to us, so we'll need to exercise patience. And we should not take risks, especially with our finances.

Well there is good news and you can look forward to some unexpected good news and romance can be very good for the single Sheep and even wealth gains can be good but please avoid investing money in 2009. Sheep born in 1979 and 1991 can expect a better year though.

If it's going to be a bad year, let's prepare for the worst & work harder! Don't let all this information get to you! If it brings you down, then push yourself forward!

If we experience any difficulties, then it will only make us stronger.


"We have no choice of what color we're born or who our parents are or whether we're rich or poor. What we do have is some choice over what we make of our lives once we're here."
-Mildred Taylor


And anyway, let's end the post with this...
Thanks to Ami.

1. The person who tagged you is?
Amirah

2. Your relationship with him/her?
Friends. Extremely good friends

3. Your 5 impressions of he/she?
Act shy, Act bad, Funny, Good at maths & Good at sports

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you.
Everything. There's a long list.

5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you.
Everything. There's an entire list

6. If he/she become ur lover, you will?
Be forced to divorce Eve. So cannot.

7. If he/she becomes your lover,thing he/she has to improve on will be?
Be less shy. Haha.

8. If he/she become your enemy, you will?
Die. Nooooo! Ami, DON'T U DARE!

9. If she/he dies , you will?
Not cry. Because she will feel my sadness in the afterlife & don't want her to feel sad.

10. What is it you want to tell he/she now?
Oh! I think we're going out this Sat right?

11. Your overall impression of him/her is
One of my bestest friends ever

12. How do u think ppl around you will feel around you?
They'll feel like they're out with a mad woman.

13. the characters you love yourself are?
My insanity. ;P

14. On the contrary,the characters you hate yourself are?
Fall in love easily. Too easily. Haha. Then get heart broken easily

15. The most ideal person you want to be is?
Mar from Marbell. (:
Gwen Stefani. (:
Actually I just want to be a taller & slimmer version of myself. Haha, with powerful vocals! 8DD

16. For people that you care and likes you, say something to them.
I love you. So sorry if I have ever hurt you

17. Pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you.
I'm not gonna tag because I'm lazy. So don't bother. And it's really up to you if you want to do this. Haha.
1. Evelyn
2. Chin Ming
3. Mandy
4. Sze Him
5. Hakim
6. Janine
7. Christel
8. Aaron Chan
9. Charmaine
10. Lin lin

18. Who is no.6 having relationship with?
She's single. :)

9. Is no.9 a male or female?
female

20. If no.7 and no.10 are together, will that be a good thing?
they don't know each other & anyway, they're straight.

21. What is no.2 studying about?
property development in Singapore Poly

22. What was the last time you had a chat wif no.3?
karaoke outing. -.-'' She's MIA again!

23. What kind of music band no.8 like?
Dir en Grey, plastic Tree, Alice Nine. Jrock ;DD

24. Does no.1 have any sibling?
2 older brothers

25. Will woo no.3?
She's my mistress. Uh Oh. My wife will KILL me.

26. How about 7?
Maybe. But my wife will still KILL me!

27. Is no.4 single?
yeah. Why? You wanna woo her?

28. What is the surname of no.5?
Don't have surname.

29. What is a hobby of no.10?
hmmm. making jewelry?

30. does no.5 and no.9 get along well?
Eh. No 5 don't like Sec 5s. And I don't think they ever talked to eachother before.

31. Where does no.2 studying at ?
SP

32. Talk about something for no.1.
My wife.

33. Have you tried developing feelings for no.8?
Eh... Ermm.. He's really cute and all, but I feel like a paedophile. Haha.

34. Where does no.9 live?
Choa Chu kang. It's quite near my place. No, I'm not a stalker.

35. What colour does no.4 like?
I don't know. I guess... PURPLE? YELLOW? GREEN? BLACK?

36. Are no.1 and no.5 are best friend?
haha. nope. They don't really talk much to eachother.

37. Does no.1 have any pet?
Eien, Pet Society. Although it's pretty dead now.... -.-'''

38. Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?
YES. She's extremely sexy. All my friends are. :D

39. What is no.10 doin now?
In School, having lunch at makan place??? ;D MAKAN PLACE!




And rmb my dear friends.

"It is not in the stars to hold our destiny but in ourselves"

-Shakespeare

THE CLIQUE !

Finally a meet-up. Somehow, it's always these faces... -.-'''
Just met Chin & Ami during open house at SP.
And well, the last official outing we had was in DEC, the KARAOKE outing.

Sze couldn't turn up. ):
Man, as usual... MIA.... -.-'''
Ati, uhhhh. Can't tell you what happened. HAHA.

It's a secret.

First we ate, then we shopped. Or rather... I shopped. I bought myself a pair of earrings, a belt & a pair of heels! (;
This is for New Year!
And these are the first few clothes I bought this new year. Woots! I'm really happy.

As usual, to Far East. Then to Paragon just to get a Crumpler. Ended up getting the crumpler at Heeren. Haha.
Went NUM.
Ami & I were going gaga over the bags. Not the boys. OOOH. YES. THE BAGS. Mainly because I want a bag.

I plan to get the NUM bag for school next year! (:
Either that or a crumpler but since I don't really suit sling bags, I'll get the NUM bag! (:
SEXY! ;D


Did I tell you... my bank account is depleting. So yes, I need a job. Desperate already.
Will get one after Mon. No more procrastinating. After New Year, chiong.

I don't need a boyfriend, unless he can contribute $500 to my account. So yes. No boys. No time for them anyway.

Love being single! YAY! (;

Anyway. I was checking my email & I saw this email from Dama. It's a chain letter but somehow, I find it very accurate!


August Babies
Outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on attention. No self-control. Kind hearted. Self-confident. Loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. Easy to get along with and talk to. Has an 'everything's peachy' attitude Likes talking and singing. Loves music. Daydreamer. Easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. Loves to be loved. Hates studying. in need of 'that someone'. Longs for freedom. Rebellious when withheld or restricted. Lives by 'no pain no gain' caring. Always a suspect. Playful. Mysterious. 'charming' or 'beautiful' to everyone. stubborn. curious. Independent. Strong willed. A fighter. Repost in 5 mins and you will meet the love of your life sometime next month.

Eheheh! Sounds like me right?? ;)


Next update, most probably after New Year! (:

Time

The clock is ticking
Tick Tock Tick Tock

5am
I look at my phone
Before I check
I let out a moan

7am
I am in the train
I hang my head
I feel ashamed

10 am
My boss comes out
I say I'm fine
Yet I moon about

2pm
I reach my house
I head for my room
And begin to shout

5pm
I hug my pillow tight
My eyes really hurt
Though I said goodnight

7pm
Time for Dinner
Daddy said don't cry
And I'll be a winner

9pm
I reply their calls
I know they want to help
As this is my first fall

12 midnight
I stone away
I think of last night
And begin to pray

It's 2009
Time doesn't stop
Even though I've tried
To rewind the clock

Tick Tock Tick Tock
I close my eyes and begin to walk
Towards the future
Although I'm in doubt

The past still haunts
The present is still going on
My future's uncertain
But I still have to move on

guess what I'm writing about & who it is about. (:

Kinda obvious right?

This is dedicated to you. (:

He would be a prince
Riding on a magnolia white horse
With his gorgeous blue eyes
He will sweep me off my feet

He would buy me gifts
All so expensive
Then he would say
You deserve the best

We would marry & live
In his big white palace
And all them girls
Will be so jealous

That was my fantasy
Of what my love should be
But in reality
I found someone else

He's not a prince
With a pretty face
He's not that appealing
That's what the girls say

I do not care
For what do they know
That underneath his looks
Lies a gentle demeanour

He doesn't have money
So he works to earn his keep
Wanting to spend on his honey
Doesn't want to see her weep

He's not living in a palace
Just a HDB flat with his parents
And he'll spend the nights chatting to me
Even if he knows he has work in the morning

I needn't worry when I'm with him
For I know he'll protect me
And he'll come in a whim
Even if he's not there

He's not a prince that I always wanted
Rather he's more of an average guy
The kind that I've always overlooked
But always made me smile despite my plight

If that's not love
I don't know what is
Because I accept his flaws
And love him as he is

He's my first love
The one I'll always know
That made my heart whole
And my pale skin glow

I will never forget
Because though we've parted
You're always the best
Deep inside my heart





comments please. ((:
yes, it's corny I know...

Am I supposed to be upset?
I doubt it. I already had this feeling that I won't get in so why do I even bother?

I think it's really the time I face the music & face reality. I'm just not good enough for it. And though I really want it badly, but it doesn't want me. Then who am I to complain.

Let's face it. I didn't work hard enough for it. I don't deserve it.
My fault. Let's get back to reality.


Goodbye dreams of being a newspaper editor, hello reality.
Oh well. Doesn't matter much does it?
My life's already half screwed.


What am I to look forward to? What is it that I'm searching for really?
What do I love?

Really. Mom should have just sent me off to some Arts school last year. And though it would have been a pain in the ass, well... At least I'll be happy being me...

Kinda pathetic really because I didn't really pick the choices based on my dreams and everything.
My real dream... HAHA. This is gonna be a shocker..
Is to just perform.
Uhh. Yeah, I love acting & singing & dancing. Although I can't sing. And well, my parents don't even support me.
So yeah. Sad huh. ))):
Oh well. Whatever.

Get back to reality. That dream won't ever come true.
Hahaha.
Yay.

I'm not emo. So don't worry.

I guess my new dream now is to... Well, loose WEIGHT! And then continue with the modelling stuff...
And then get signed on by a real agency like Elite or something. Although making it big in Sg is tough especially when I've got eczema... )):
Oh well. That will take years but who cares.


Now what.
Sit & rot & wait.


Sighs. Goodness. Just forget it.
I'll be fine and I'll continue to surprise people with my abilities. Don't you worry.
If I get into IT or Engineering. Don't worry. I'll do my best. I love a challenge. And this is it. (:

The busride

The busride



The bus travels slowly
As cars whiz by
For once I'm not lonely
Because I have you by my side

My head lies on your shoulder
As I pretend to sleep
All the way from one end to the other
Just so you don't worry about me

I tell myself that it's not forever
And to cherish this moment before we part
You seem to hear because you whisper
I love you with all of my heart

I give a shy smile
And think that its corny
But I dont say a word
Because I like it that way

The silence is beautiful
As we put our heads together
And listen to our hearts
Making music with each other

How I wish this moment will last
For the whole night if not eternity
And you say my wish will be granted
And that we'll always stay this way

The bus still travels slowly
As tears well in my eyes
I wonder why I'm thinking of you
When it's obvious you no longer love me

I know this is freaking late but...


My new year's resolution this year is....

TO QUIT BEING SUCH AN EMOKIA!


I still think that it is somewhat strange for me to say that I'm really emo because... It just isn't me.

Those who know me won't describe me as an emo kid. Like duh, I spend almost every minute being happy.

I only turned emo after that day. Alright, I shan't take about that day. Instead I'll take about my resolution.

Well, what's to talk about?

Stop being emo. Quit yakking about all those heartbreaking stuff & continue keeping a smile on my face.
Also, quit writing it down.
I tend to deal with all my problems through words and long essays based on just my emotions.

I remember once, when I felt really bad about this certain incident back in Sec 2. (Yes it involves, Duck Big Bro)
I ended up writing one entire essay during the whole of bio lesson & felt really good after that.

Honestly, I should just stop worrying the people around me.


Then again, I think my new year's resolution is pretty silly. Well, it is already silly. WTH -.-'''


To tell you the truth, I don't really have a resolution other than loosing more weight.
Gosh, I think I'm anorexic without the being thin part. ):

And look it's already the 19th. And I've only started thinking about my resolutions now?! Am I slow or what?


Anyway, I need to find a job & I just realised that I have a dental appointment on the 22nd. ):
&& I've not even been wearing my retainers. NOT WEARING!

So last night, I wore them for the entire night & this morning when I woke up, my teeth fucking hurt. It hurts even more than braces! ):

Oh. I really miss wearing braces....
Change modules. Haha. My bro got brainwashed by me & picked BLACK modules! How cool is that?
His teeth big, so it looks pretty. My teeth are so small, that when I wear braces & smile... It looks like I have no teeth at all. WTH WTH. Haha!

Mom calls me Iron woman because I basically lived through all the pain & went through extremely hard stuff & didn't even complain.
I rmb extracting my teeth out early in the morning and then spending the entire weekend in camp after that. Best right? Two teeth gone. And one long leadership camp!
Then it was time to put on braces.
I put it on and the next day, I even had a competition to attend. Yeah, the YES thingy.


So fun right?
I remember how my Sec 2 to Sec 4 became really weird and screwed up. Haha.

Gosh. I can't believe I spilled out so much stuff in here. LOL.

(:


Anyway, it's good to feel all silly again. (:
Oh & yeah. I still need help.
Please help me.
Need somebody to help me.
&& please don't think that I'm hitting on you.
Because I'm not.
Because I REALLY NEED HELP~
Basically, this position is for guys & actually girls can apply too. (If they want to appear lesbian)
Oh & btw. This offer is not for that SOMEONE. You know what I'm talking about.

At this point of time, I'm not feeling any better. My brain cells are dying as I try to figure out my next move. I really don't know. ):


Apparently, this thing has been affecting me for the past few months.
I feel lighter but I still want this problem to go away.


Please make it stop hurting.

I guess I'll be pretty busy this weekend.
I'm preparing my portfolio for JPSAE because I might or might not be called down for an interview but it's better for me to be safe rather than sorry. (:

I'm not going to procrastinate because I want this really badly.
I'm still searching for all my certificates, the ones I received from participation in competitions like BA Zest etc. I'm also searching for all my old photos so that I can print them out and add them to my portfolio. The compositions which I used to ace are nowhere to be found because they were thrown away so it's really sad. ):

Oh well, I'll have my fictions, poems, scripts, articles and photos to help me out. I'll just need a printer. I do have a printer. Just that it's at my aunt's place because she's using it to scan some photos. Oh and my printer does not have ink so obviously I'm going to need another printer.
I'm going to type out my fictions, one-shots and poems and print them out of course.
I don't want them reading my incomprehensible hand writing. Well, it isn't neat. *shrugs*

I doubt I'll be letting them read my latest work, the one with the woman who suffers from split personality and is trying to execute revenge. I like that plot a lot. Mainly because it's scary and very unlike the preppy me you see everyday.

I doubt I'll let them read my mushy stuff either. Nobody can compete with me when it comes to being mushy and romantic. *cough out blood*




By the way, does anybody have any comment about this photo I took a few years back?

I'm thinking of adding it into my portfolio... I am not adding my photos in. Sorry eh. I'm not supposed to be the one behind the camera, not the subject.


Alright, well. Other than that, I'm not really sure of what to present.
Just behave the same way as I do at any normal interview.
Look neat (:
Look at them right in the eye. (:
Be comfortable. (:
Speak clearly. (:
Give them a lasting impression! (:



Wish me luck!

I've finally submitted them in! (:
I do hope that this year, I will get somewhere. (:

Notice that I've selected Ngee Ann Polytechnic for half of my choices?
Doesn't that show you how much I absolutely LOVE the school?
I really really want to get into Ngee Ann Polytechnic. Then again, most of the Red Campers want to get in too!

I really want my first choice that badly that I've applied for JPSAE too!
Hello?! The first choice is a dream to me. I've been wanting it since Sec ONE! Tsk...


I think I'll really end up in NP. You see, I listed an Engineering course which is... WTH?!
Engineering Common Programme. Normal people said I'm nuts but considering that I WAS THE ONLY GIRL in the previous competition who got into the top 10, it's nothing really. HAHA. Best right? Only person who won from Kranji somemore. Shiok right?
Ok. STOP BRAGGING.

IT sounds like fun. Haha. (:
Don't ask me why. Please. Haha.

If I don't get into NP, I'll end up in SP or NYP or RP. No TP.
HAHA. Too far. ):
&& ummm. personal reasons. Don't feel like talking about it!


Haha. I can't wait! Results come out soon please!!!



edit: WTH. I just realised I didn't erase out my personal particulars so people can just stalk or prank call me la. WTH WTH.

WTH IS THIS?!


WTF. -.-'''



Yeah, Iamsodead. Please save me.

RED CAMP 5 SPECIAL PROGRAMME AT NP (:

on 10th January 2008






Would words even be enough to describe how awesome the event was?


I seriously doubt they would be enough because actions really speak louder than words do.
Honestly, I would love to write an entire essay about how amazing the entire programme was but who would ever read such a long grandmother story?!Your ah ma? Oh no, I seriously doubt she even knows how to read... (No offence...)
Therefore, I shall just sum it up in whatever way I can although we all know that it would never be able to describe how fun the event was.


However before I start posting about the event, I would like to apologise to Farhan for being so late this morning..


Well, since that has been done....
This morning, all of us were splitted into groups today. I was lucky because I almost got into the same group as THAT person and you know I don't particularly like that person. In fact, the words I would love to use are loathe, despise and abhorr but I'm too much of a sweetheart to write that. Yeah, go on. Cough out blood.


We played a couple of games with our group members and I made friends with people like Raymond & Ying Ying (:
I forgot the names of the other girls in our group... Sadly..

The games were quite stupid but it helped us gain knowledge about Ngee Ann poly's gym. Yes. The gym. =\
Like for example, I found out there were 15 gym balls and that there are TVs at the threadmills. Cool huh?


Lunch was great because it was a real bonding session and I got to know more about people like Kenneth, Shaun (who is a Cenninchevitans) & Raymond. Apparently, Raymond likes anime & japanese stuff too! ((:

Oh & we talked to Sebastian & Jervis who are from Cenninchevitans. Jervis remembers me! He's that guy I saw at Mobbers the other day too. Sebastian didn't even remember me. ))): He remembered Yaya though. Did you know, I felt so upset....

Poor Jervis... Haha. Whacked all over. Poor thing. His dizziness was hilarious. ;D

Afterwards was the personalized tour. Rasyid, Mus, Fah, Farhan, Kenneth, Yaya, Kenneth's gf, Shaun, Hairul, Ram & some others. Oh did I tell you? That there was this guy whose name is Zul & he's just like me. Like OMG!!! Seriously! Can you believe it? Oh & he knows so much about FMS. He even knows about the new courses.
I kept on hi 5-ing him and it was pretty silly because I'm not even proud of what I've achieved. Actually I am, although it's not even good enough for me. I'm capable of better. Sounds pathetic but it's true.

Oh & btw guys, thanks so much for today. ;D
Rasyid & Mus for being my bodyguards. Yaya for alerting me & everybody else... (:
Damn funny la. He suddenly stood behind me & then the guys were like calling me and asking me to stand nearer to them so they can protect me. Thank goodness for them (:

In the lift was funnier, I happy happy stand in the spacey corner...
And then, that guy stood and was standing at where I was standing, so I squeezed in between Yaya & Kenneth. And it was funny la because I pretended like I like to be in squishy places... So I sorta humped there & everybody else was like... VERY WRONG! HAHA


Put a hood over your toot! ;D



Mobbers was pretty fun because we bumped into GERMANYM! 8DDD
I was just telling Ziq that he's not there when suddenly, I spotted him. Speak of the devil.


I kissed him. And since he likes kissing, I kissed him.... NOT.

OHH! The DANIELLE guy was there too! I watch the show on Suria okay! (: I LOVE IT!
And it's seriously rare for me to even watch or like a Malay show. I think that guy was probably like, "eh eh. Budak cina sesat kat sini."


Haha. Funny.

Mobbing around and shocking people was fun. (:



That's Keann! He's awesome! He's the guy who moves like a dancer. Super cool! (:
Oh, he's actually the third person to know about my results. First is Chin Ming.




Afterwards we were dismissed & we tried out the different CCAs. You know we just sang for fun & you know I can't sing but I just decided to have fun so Farhan decided to accompany me & sing Yellowcard's Only One! Haha, I'm thankful that he decided to sing along or else the entire atrium would hear my awful singing. I couldn't even hear myself actually so I just tried my best...

Haha. I actually captured a video of Hairul singing.

I tried out dragonboat. And competed against Farhan who is a dragon boater!!
Fun sia. I feel like joining. HAHA & be a bung. =/

Well, I would say that I did a pretty good job considering I'm a girl & that my opponent used to be a dragon boater... Oh & let me add in the best part, I haven't done much physical exercise for 2 yrs!! (:
I deserve a pat on the back don't I?

Cycling was funny because the bike seat really hurt my *toot* & the guy was like O.O because he kept on saying it's comfortable when it isn't. I mean, I'm a girl & my *toot* hurts.... What about the guys?


Anyway, we went off to Convention Centre to take photos later on. It was CRAZY I tell you.
I kissed a lot of people but the best were Brandon & Benedict. OOOH! BENEDICT BLUSHING! ;D
Brandon was so tall!!! (((((: I like. (Oh shit. Brandon, if you are reading this... I mean I like your height because it's rare for me to find guys who are taller than me)


This was the first photo I took with Brandon. Apparently, it's not close enough so for some reason, they told us to move closer & we did. -.-'''

At first I made the kissing face, then I decided.. To heck with it & I gave a smiling face. I actually like this photo. Arrhy saw the photo and msn-ed me saying that it looks as if the two of us are in a relationship. *kicks her butt* That girl misses Darren so much that she has to say stuff like that... OMG.

Anyway, I decided to take a photo of me kissing him.

Brandon even stood up to take a photo with me. (Previously he was sitting down) He said that I'm pretty tall!! YAY! :DD
Cheryl's hands were shaking so we took more!

This is the end result...

I look like I'm kissing his neck. WTH. Haha. I actually like the way the photo turned out,

The one with Benedict was funny.

He blushed can. He felt awkward. I'm sorry Benedict...
We were all teasing him because he blushed...


Haha. Took a photo with the cheesecakes & it was really fun because everybody realised that they looked alike. THE TWINS! Haha! Ohh & Hannah knows Derek too! Cool right?!



Oh yeah! Took a photo of me kissing Fauzi & Violet.
Violet was game for it!


Spent quite some time with the Cheryls, Sherylene, Sherly, Raymond, Bo Mun & Adin at the convention centre. Even when they called the Ambassadors in, we were stil snapping away at a small little corner. I think the Ambs must have gone, "WHAT ARE THESE CRAZY KIDS DOING?" Haha. We continued snapping until some of the banglas decided to take away the tables & chairs. It was really hilarious.

Afterwards, dinner-ed at King Albert Park's Mac & we chatted about a lot of things such as friendships, relationships, religions & of course, RESULTS.


I think I did made plenty of new friends & I'm glad that I was able to meet such AWESOME PEOPLE.


Let's end with this pic ;D





For more photos, please visit my FB account. TYVM (:

RESULTS

Maths- B4
Phy/Chem -C6

EL - A2
SS/Hist- C5
Pure Geog- C6
ML- B3
Art- C6


What really matters are the results of the two subjects listed above.

The other four subjects were never much of a concern during this entire 09. I already knew my results for those four subjects for what seems like an eternity.

I spent another year agonizing over the results of those two subjects & studying hard just trying my best to achieve an A although I knew it was impossible. Yet, I've managed to do it.
A B4 for my Maths instead of the initial D7.
A C6 for my Science, a grade better than the initial one...

I've improved. I did it. Without much guidance & after much suffering, I've done it.

2008 had been a nightmare for me. When the O level results were released then, it had started a very painful chapter of my life.

As friends started attending schools and leaving me behind. I was left alone in a painful world with few who could actually understand what I was going true. And the only one who held my hand tight and had been guiding me, chose to let me fall just as the battle was drawing near.

So there I lay, broken but still forcing myself to persevere.
I felt pressurized at times but I just tried my best to stay strong...

I'm not afraid. I'm really not.

I'll stay strong & continue fighting, being the fighter & the strong girl that people know me as.
There's no reason for me to cry... Not now...

Still, I'm wondering if I should be disappointed with myself for letting myself get these sort of results. I'm capable of better but it's just that my laziness got the better of me. In my 4 yrs in secondary school, I've always been getting single digits for Maths so I suppose this is good...

Still, I'm disapointed because it's really impossible to get into Mass Comm. WHY?! WHY?!


I'm prepared though to face whatever challenges that lie ahead of me. I'll not give up just yet.
One of these days, I shall write... (:


Thank goodness the nightmare of 2008 is over... Now, it's just left with facing that nightmare....

RP, SP, TP & NYP!

THE POLY OPEN HOUSES!

This is like the first year I attended all the poly open houses although I didn't go to NP's except for the Red Camp Special Program on Sat. That's sad but it's alright. I've been going & wanting to go to NP for like an entire year so it doesn't really matter. Does it??


Let's start with the RP open house on 7th Jan

It was silly. Really. I can't believe I went to the open house with mom & she went home & then I went to meet Hakim. =/
And best of all, that guy was trying to deter me from going RP.
Oh well. Met Shafiq & Dian there. I guess they were wondering who Kim was. Haha.
Kim's really funny like OMG. The people at RP can actually think that he's not a student there... =/
Oh my. Haha.
They even attempted to give him goody bags and told us to walk here, there blah blah...
Did I mention, I ended up sitting with him & his friends, Shaun & Marcus in the library.. Cool huh. I feel like a student. *cough*

We were trying to get Kim to play pet society & I nearly wanted to use his lappy to play pet society. Oh & he plays Left 4 Dead too!!! 8DD
He was kinda shocked to hear me say that I wanna play it because that's not Aishah. LOL.

Dinner-ed with the of them at Causeway's KFC. I thought I saw Wirbe there too... Hmmm...
Oh & we met Eja who happens to be friends with one of my primary school friends, Sharmini.
She can't even recognise me...

Have I really changed THAT MUCH?
Okay, well... It's post braces period & I'm wearing Contacts now!! She knows me during pre-braces period.

~

Singapore Polytechnic
LCM & I met up at Dover MRT
I can't believe I actually walked past her lovely hair. ):
Oh & it's darker now because she dyed it but it's gone now!!! 8DDD Although it isn't as blonde as it was before...
Well, SP's really boring although I met up with all sorts of people there.
Saw Silverknight there too! Haha.
Akmal was there, Izy was there....
Although I didn't really have much to do there...

~

Temasek Polytechnic
I never really planned to go to TP for the open house because I was really afraid to bump into him.
Then.. On that day itself, I switched on MSN & Rashid invited me to go out with the rest of them to TP's open house.
I think I told him before about who's in TP so yeah...
I'm really glad to have them around me because I didn't feel as frightened about who I might meet.
I was late by a lot because he told me 30 minutes before the meeting time & I was like "WHA-?!"


This was taken when we went to TP's Business School to catch TP's Business School NEXT TOP MODEL Student.

with Mak-Donna whose real name is Eda. She's really funnehhhhh!
With the Cast!
They were awesome!!!


After TP, we went to NYP
&& I went to meet Ati, Ziq, Z-man, Akmal & Ellysa.
And we played laser quest.

I don't know why blogger is shitty with the photos. ):

Made me lazy to update.





Okay. Best of luck people. Post about results & RC special programme soon!

DAY OUT AT THE SG FLYER

on 6th Jan

Met the rest up pretty late & it was pretty last minute too...
Only received info from Haziq (red camper not SL) in the morning at about 12am right before I fell asleep...

I came 30 mins late because I was stuck in the bus.
Meeting time was actually 3 at Cityhall.
So I spent another day out with the Vikings. (:

We spent quite some time chit chatting with each other and well playing games.
Dian and I had to leave early. Dian had training. Chuteball or something. Sounds cool...
I, well, you know my parents....

The Sg flyer was pretty deserted. Duh. Closed & school day....
So we sat at the F1 road 8DD
F1 sehhh... And opposite, you could see the sea & marina barrage.


So had quite a lot of fun with them & well, got to know them better??? (:

Haha. Viking's rocks la. ;D

This is such a bimbo moment but who cares. I'm ranting now!!! D<

You might have noticed the tagboard. Ami & I are both ranting about our hair!
Her mom says her hair is not nice. My mom hasn't said a word but I know she hates the fact that it's layered. =/
And it is EASILY MESSY NOW. WTF. ):

I only like the bangs.... Which are not even cut properly. WLE. waste of my $10.
I cut myself although not layered nicer la. ):
Think I'm joking, I'm for real. For the past 4 years, I cut my own hair okay. Includes my bangs. 8D

Okay la, it looks longer today. Maybe it grew overnight.



Anyway, I love my eyes ;D
Sexy right?
Sky blue contacts from Freshkon.
Usually, I use Freshlook but there was no blue available for me at the moment...
I like using blue contacts btw. They're pretty.



Will blog about RP open house & SP open house soon uh...... (:

CENNINCHEVITANS BBQ

CENNINCHEVITANS OUTING
on 6th Jan 09

So finally, we all met up again. Sexayyyy right?
Okay, well Germany & co weren't there....

Anyway, I would like to say that our bbq wasn't that much of a success but neither was it a flop.
In fact, I would like to say that it was pretty good given the lack of discussion the organisers had because... one by one... They started to leave overseas....

Oh well, it's a good effort indeed.

I made new friends like the guys of WSS, Xinci, Ice, Mindy, Raymond, Gerald & PC...
They were really quite friendly and fun to be hanging around.

Of course, something bad happened... Well... I can't say what happened out here but... those who attended should know. We had a pest. A HUGE PEST.
That pest was so huge, that all of us wanted to kill it. Really. Not bluffing.

It was fun walking to West Coast plaza with Yaya, Fah, Ziq, Lyn, Ami... Haha. (:

I "kissed" a lot of people. It's strange. Really.

Bubbles were blown around & it was super funny trying to start the fire.
How many hours did we take? 2-3... Well, it's not as bad as a previous bbq I went to.
Haha. I remember I was so hungry, I crashed into some boxes at Cold Storage. LOL.

Anyway, I'm really glad to have known and to have met these people. They're really great people & lots of fun to be around too!!


See you on 10th Jan ppl! ;DD
&& All the best for results alright! ;D

For a moment there, I lost the will to write.

How long has it been since I last wrote something proper? Each word seems to have lost its meaning now. My work has no more life.

Something's wrong. I just don't know what.

My heart is telling me to write the words out but the words just don't want to come out.

It's not moving. It's sleeping. No matter how much I try, it doesn't budge. It's lying there... In a deep slumber.


My writings... The poems that I used to write every so often have all turned to dust. The stories and characters I conjured up have grown up. Somehow, nothing seems realistic or beautiful anymore. I've lost that touch I once had.

What's going on?

The KL trip was great! (:

On the way there, I didn't even sleep & that's such a shocker!

I had quite a lot of fun shopping & stuff.

&& looking at bishies. Honestly, there were many bishies in KL. Why Sg don't have?
Maybe it's because not many of the guys are into VK.

Oh well. =/

I ate my Subway & I'm so so happy that I got to eat it! It's HALAL SUBWAY! (((:
And I kept on drinking Starbucks....
My unadama don was yummeh too although it doesnt beat Waraku's... Maybe different atmosphere because Waraku has that very jap feel because of the room & the dining table... *shrugs*

I ate my nasi ayam twice. TWICE ONLY! Sad right???

Oh & I had pasta too. At KLCC. Although it's not pastamania, it was still nice but too creamy and lacking taste...

I just realised that KLCC has Manhattan Fish Market!
This is Aaron's fault. He made me addicted to fish & chips.


I kept on eating and eating in KL. Couldn't stop. The food was just too yummy. A pity that Genting didnt really have nice food. We only had hotdog from 1901 & starbucks. The breakfast buffet wasn't even nice. It was yucky. Doesn't beat the breakfast buffet at Impiana hotel, where they served WAFFLES! WAFFLES!! WAFFLES I TELL YOU! YUMMY!


Yeah, didn't buy much either. Got my eyeliner though.
Clothes were pretty cheap but I'm too choosy I guess.

And did you know?? An OP in KL cost RM160+ while in Sg, the same OP could cost $160++.
CHEAP RIGHT?!
Panniers are RM40+ while in Sg, they are $40.
You see the huge price difference...

Anyway, nearly bought Kera in KL but decided not to. I can read the scans you know...


Oh & I've got two new pair of jeans. Cheap okay.
2 pairs for 100 ringgit! If you convert... WAHH!!

I only like KL.
Don't really like Genting because the toilet sucked. The food sucked. And well, my parents don't allow me to play the rides. So yeah, I had no entertainment.


Oh &&&
In KL. Something very funny happened...
We were walking past a store selling pjs. The ones that kids can dress up as their fav superheroes like the ones at pasar malam...

When...
Aishah:: Last time, bro always wanted to buy this eh. Rmb? But nobody buy for him...
Mom:: Yeah. Haha. Last time he always want to buy....
Aishah:: Yeah, I rmb... HAHA. Go buy now la!
Mom:: Want to buy for what?? You see him, we never buy this sort of things for him but he nvr complain abt deprived childhood... (cos I always complain about my deprived childhood)
Bro:: WHO SAY?? I also got deprived childhood..
Mom:: You also have??

Funny la. Cause most of the time, my bro never even talk & he lazy to entertain me & my mom.
So when he said that... All of us were like stunned.

My childhood damn deprived.
Haha. I pity my mom seh. Her daughter a bit not right in the head. Always complain and ask, why you never buy me that princess dress when I was still small? Then will ask, why last time I small you never... blah blah blah...
Then I will ask her, When can I have another sibling?

I think she can get high blood pressure or go crazy if she hasn't known me for years. HAHA.
Any stranger would have passed away already.




Haha. Okay la. End of post. END END.



I damn sian I tell you.
Tmr will be going RP open house with mommy! ;D
YAY!
Then can ask her to this and that! Haha, I think I will end up nagging.... -.-'''


Told you I have a weird family.
I still remember the last time she called me to ask me about buying jeans.
Haha. I sound like I'm talking to a friend... LOL.




Btw, not much mood to blog ah. Expect a post in IDK when.

It takes a while for a caterpillar to turn into a butterfly.
It takes a while for somebody to change.

However, I'm planning to start life all over again.
This year I turn 18.
I'm there.
Adult. Time to be more responsible & take care of myself.
Time to be socially active yet practice self-control.

This year.
I want to be the person I've always wanted to be.

back from KL!


HAPPY NEW YEAR LOVES! (:

bye 2008 & the bittersweet memories that came with it.

Let's welcome the New Year & let's all pray we have better moments ahead of us.
Face the coming challenges with a smile because they will get better.

It doesn't get any better than this.



It's time for me to have a BN start at life since I will be turning 18 in a couple of months. (:

A new chapter is about to be written.
Let's all work hard together (: