Really. I am so dead.

Mom found out about ________________________________________. And now, I'm in deep shit.

Then my phone's missing. Stolen.


GREAT!
&& something happened! (:

unofficial outing tmr.

I'm still thinking. Should i go? Haha.

So far.
I've only asked...
3 people.
And out of the 3, only one said he's going.
1 said, not confirmed... Depends on his ______________.
The last 1 said she can't make it.


Huh. Either way, I'll be alone.
Sighs.


Nevermind. I'm used to that.
I went for the previous year's unofficial outings on my own didn't I?


Don't know. Depends. See how first tmr.
Confirm I don't want to get wet. Haha!
No swimming because I can't swim well. No bikinis either. HAHA!
It depends. LOL. Might wear. Inside. LOL.



Ok. Me off to bed. Or else.......
Eye bags~~~~~~~~

Aishah.

Quit getting yourself into trouble. Tsk.

damn uh.
zOMG is addictive!
It's like maple. Only cuter! ^^
Really, I swear....


zOMG is actually Gaia's new MMO! ;D
Awesome huh? It's really awesome how much GAIA has changed over these few years.
I still remember playing it in 2004 back when it was still a forum.
Later on, in 2005... They added on Gaia Fishing, Gaia Towns & later on Slots.
More games were introduced in 2006 & I got really addicted to foruming in 2007.
I'm really proud of how much Gaia has grown.


If not for Gaia, I probably wouldn't have been friends with Christel, Kristy, Jocelyn, Kelvin, Aaron, Joey etc.
It was Gaia that pulled me out of my dark and gloomy days & I love it! (:



Speaking of Gaia,
I'm sure some of you have heard about the recent AFA (Anime Fest Asia)

I was there. Working for Gaia.

I had a blast, making new friends, meeting new people. (:
And I'm starting to wonder... How did I get that energy? I mean, I spent an entire day at NP for Red Camp... I danced until I couldn't stand. ):


Anyway, AFA was indeed awesome. (:
Tons of pictures. I had to smile untill my cheeks twitched!!! And I'm a very Smiley girl okay! ;D
Yeah, can show my teeth now!


&& I met Jonathan Leong! XD
He's my favourite contestant from the two seasons of Idol other than Taufik! I'm serious! ^^
I was star struck yet I approached him anyway! ^^
Ami. I'm no longer shy! Proud of me eh? LOL.


Okay. Pics are credits to MOTO since my camera dropped. Now it's working again. Pffffft. ):


Jonathan is a really sweet guy! I'm really grateful that he agreed to take a photo with me. *blush*



Yes, I look retarded with the grunny & the kiki. Hehe.

Oh. I brought home the huge KIKI! ^^
It slept on my queen sized bed while I msned until two & then I joined it in bed.
It's my bf/gf. (:



that's the domo i bought at AFA! cute right??
there was this other t-shirt. but it was ex.... T^T
So i bought domo!
I actually liked the bag at natsu matsuri!!





Hmmm...
Actually, there's an uber nice photo but sadly... The two people in the photo are.... ermm.... erm.....
Yeah. I don't want to post no matter how nice it is.
Unless, you want me to....
We're still friends right? *sighs*




A bunch of things have happened. Yeah. And like I told Ami... The reason is ________ & she said Aishah, your reason is seriously.....
stupid. yes.




Anyway... Does anybody know... what is love?

So, I was supposed to blog about Red Camp...

Which Red Camp?
Oh Red Camp 5!




wait a min, those are... RED CAMP 4 badges.... (yes, I won them last year!)

But they're the same. so let's just go back to...





RED CAMP 5!


Apparently, I didn't attend Day One. So no point blogging about what didn't happen.


Day Two

Amirah, Charmaine & I met at 2.30pm. (Meeting time was supposed to be 2.30pm but I was late as usual)
Amirah had her Korea briefing in school first, so that was why we came so late & also because we had to miss out on the registration. Yes, she's going Korea soon. I miss her already. LOL.

Anyway, we were walking around trying to find Vikings when... we found the Centurions. One of the SLs brought us to find our tribe which was actually right underneath our feet. Yeah, the Vikings were at the convention centre.
Upon arrival, we were looking for familiar faces. We saw, Eugenie, Fedora, Huei Chin, Janice etc!
Of course, we needed to find someone we know & we found, Haziq & Joyce Lin!
Haziq is from Kranji, so of course we know him! Haha. And he already knew about us crashing a long time ago!!! I did not say that. LOL.

Yeah, so whatever activity they had, just ended... So we sat & watched before returning back to the convention centre. They started teaching us the mass dance & stuff!

The three of us, already knew All For One! So, the hairspray part was very new but we kinda got it.

Afterwards, we had dinner!

And that was when we saw JOYCE! ^^
Yeah, remember her? ((:
Gosh, we missed her! She remembers us, I'm touched! *tears*

Okay, so after getting our dinner, we sat down & we actually asked Haziq to join us but he said that the SLs needed to mingle with people that they don't know. So he walked away.

A while later....








"Can we sit here?"


We turned around and saw 3 SLs & then... There was Haziq again!
*rofl*
So much for mingle with people we don't know.


The two other SLs were...
JR & Ian. ( I actually didn't know their names until the third day. LOL. )

I intro myself very weirdly. As usual..
HAHA! My name is always, I FORGET MY NAME! XDDDD
Yeah, laugh all you want. I told you what. Nowadays I'm trying to give weird names to play hide & seek. (Personal stuff)

Okay la, then somehow...
They found out that I'm a little obsessed with Japan. (Is it a little? Or is it a lot?)
And Ian cracked a lame joke.
The lame joke is really lame. HAHA!

Then after dinner, we went photo taking! (:

Some pictures are not clear la. Sorry.


oh baby, cos we ROW!!!! LOL
Horny Vikings! (:
















Day Three


Amirah couldn't make it. She had school & preparations for her cousin's wedding.

So Charmaine & I went. I borrowed Charmaine's green shirt. TY!

And when we arrived, we were lucky cos registration was over. Heng ah.

Oh, we did CCA! NRA!

I saw WEI GUANG!!!! && Z MAN!
I'm more excited over Wei Guang though because he was my classmate. HAHA! (: & I've known him longer! And I actually talk more to him than I do to Z man. (Actually, I talk very little to the sixsomes. Faizal is excluded because I've known him since primary school & even my family knows him. *drops dead*)

Afterwards...
Lunch tgt with the Sec 5s & two SLs. JR(again) & Sarah Peh!
Okay la. It was damn funny!


Later on, there was the finale, mass dance, the record breaking attempt.

BTW, the record breaking attempt was cool!
seriously. Vikings changed pose! Most picture-perfect I tell you. And it's my favourite too!

Oh & did I tell you?

I made a new friend or rather a few new friends.

One of them is my dance partner. He's damn enthu! SERIOUSLY!
And the other is this guy, his name is Hairul. He's famous among all the malay guys. LOL.
I heard he was cursing in the bus on the way to prayers. LOL.

Okay, back to my dance partner. So Charmaine & I had no real partner. So we ended up partnering him who was my dance partner! COOL right! And he was really standing in between us! LOL. If I'm not wrong, his name is Fadli.


Yeah, it's really cool.

Oh the finale after the skit, when the SLs stood on the stage, I actually teared because it was a feeling of dejavu. I knew how sad goodbye is. Really. Red camp...

Then. Somehow, it was the mass dance all over again, and a human train just started & I don't know how I got dragged inside. I was pulled to Centurions, to Ninjas... Haiyo.

Then, it was phototaking after dinner. :3

Took lots of photos with the SLs! But they're with Charmaine because my camera died. ):

Oh, we met Fabian too! HAHA!

But Zoukout was the best! (:
Charmaine left after dinner. But Ati came over. And poor Akmal was left standing outside. Poor him.

I made a new friend through Zoukout. Haha. Actually made friends with a few girls too.
Don't know their names but suddenly we started dancing with them. (: Really fun! (:

Oh & then there were these Apache SLs who were dancing with Syafiq the Apache SL from last year. They actually thought Ati & I were flirting. NO WAYYYYY!

Ati & I are just good friends. Later somebody come find me & kill me. D:


Oh & there was this guy dancing around, saying Hello to everyone!
Atiqah knows who. Haha, that guy also knows who. (:
He said hello to me, so I said Hi back. What? It's good to be friendly!!
LOL. Yeah, we're both really high.
Atiqah said I'm crazy. LOL.
Well, at least we're friends now.... Who knows we might even end up as classmates next year. ((:
Yes, Chong En, if you're reading this. I'm talking about you!!


Okay, and there were other things that happened after Ati left.
Like, I couldn't stand. D:
My thighs just gave way. I went super low until I couldn't stand.
Thank goodness for the juniors.

Okay.



And walked to NP's gate with Fabian.
&& I said bye to MATTHEW!!!

Charmaine will say I like Matthew all over again. *bangs head against wall*

My feet hurt ):
Whatever, I'm still happy. ;D

Something happened...

And it is... I MANAGED TO DANCE ALL MY STRESS AWAY! ;D
eh, I'm under stress okay. Stress from a certain shit in my life.
And you know, I don't really give a damn anymore. (:
Oh & vengeance is sweet. *smug smile*



Blog more about RC 5 on Monday. Why? I've got work my dears. ):
AFA 08! HERE I COME! ((:
voice crack liao, need to talk leh. And spend an entire day from 9am to 9pm at Suntec & the same on Sunday.
I can still stand, so don't worry.
I've been through worse....
Yeah, I'm part superman. (No! I will never say I'm superwoman anymore! Personal things)

On Tues,

my com just died.

I switched it on after going out with Eve & it just .... ):
Ohhhhhh. D:

Anyway, my legs hurt. ):
Not from shopping too much. It's from jogging. Muscles around the knee area D:
I nearly couldn't walk. I looked like a penguin. D:
Not good.
I guess that's what I get for being a bum & for not exercising well enough.

My zoo pictures are gone T^T
Good news for me is that, a few days of RC & AFA will do the trick. (:
Pssst. I plan on wearing shorts for AFA 08 ;)
I know I don't have legs that are that BEAUTIFUL but you know, I rarely wear shorts. HAHA!!


Oh yeah!
Gosh, and I feel like doing more photoshoots.. muahaha.
I'm seriously mad.

Last night, I had a nightmare. ):
Need to get away. I think I had better leave. It's no point staying when everything is hurting.
I have to go.

This road, this path... It's meant for me to walk in.


Just that, I want to know so desperately... What that dream means.

But I do, don't I? Subconsciously, I do know what it's trying to tell me but I'm denying it. I'm denying every single thing with all of my heart..


Still, I'll be fine. I know I will.
Just another month to go before all will be okay. (:
Then I'll be in KL, spending 5 days in a hotel & shopping.
Then I'll return, on new year to a brand new me.


Change is necessary in order to be better.
~~

"Empty"

Tried to take a picture
Of love
Didn't think I'd miss her
That much
I want to fill this new frame
But its empty

Tried to write a letter
In ink
Its been getting better
I think
I got a piece of paper
But its empty
Its empty

Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty

And I've even wondered
If we
Should be getting under
These sheets
We could lie in this bed
But its empty
Its empty

Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty

Oh oh
Oh oh
Oooooh
Oh oh
Oh oh

Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty

We're empty
We're empty

~

Yes, how empty. ):

p.s i just realised that i have no emo photos. wow. ))):

Saw my name on Janine's entry & yeah. I decided to do this which had my name in it.
Can't say I hate such things but you know, it's fun to do them. Really fun because sometimes I try my best to answer with really witty retorts.

Okay, so read on...

1. Do you have secrets?
Yeah, it's my personal data which you can't hack into & it's VERY password protected. LOL.

2. Would you fall in love with a boy older than you?
How old is old? Maximum is 5 years la. Any older, must be some tycoon. *cough*
Then again, love is blind & you'll never know. *shrugs*

3. Do you enjoy going to sch?
Yes, No. Uhh. I don't know. Sometimes I do, well actually... I do.

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
Invest.*cough cough*
(It sounds nicer than the word spend doesn't it?)

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend's stead?
Ehhhh. My best friend's stead...
Er, we'll talk when they have a stead. And anyway, the one who does have it. Erm, not & will never be interested in her guy. D<
But even if I do fall in love with their stead, I doubt I will get involved because I would rather them be happy.

6. If you have to choose one person between ur boyfriend & best friend, who will you choose?
BEST FRIEND!
I used to choose ex-san over my girlfriends. And how wrong was I?! At least my friends won't hurt me that way. At least they're there for me.
And yeah, I'm sorry girls. ):

7. List out your 15 favourite songs:
Of all time? Lol. Go karaoke with me then you'll know la. I always pick the same old songs to sing. *nods*

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
Sigh. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh.
you know what.. majority of the guys i used to like back in school were already attached. like hello, stupid question. ):
So, this is my answer,
Let them be, fighting & competing with somebody that he already loves is hard & it's not worth it at all. D:

9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
Today?
Nada. D:
Yesterday?
Nothing. D:
Past 5 months?
Nothing?
Past year?
Yeah. But that was once upon a time & I don't ever want to talk about it. D:

10. What makes you angry?
You know what, I'm not going to bother saying it because the *toot* might somehow find my blog & read it. So yeah.

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
Gorgeous, Tall (with 5 inch heels), Hot & Rich.
But old. T^T

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
My friends & family of course!

13. What is the most important thing in life?
every thing is of equal importance. You must have it all balanced in order to live a good life.

14. What is more important?Family or Career? justify.
Family.
They brought me up, so if I were forced to give up my career to take care of them. I would rather do that.
However, I doubt I'll ever go through this.

15. What is your favourite colour?
PINK! & BLACK! NO WHITE ANYMORE!

16. Would you give all in a relationship?
I would still give it my all despite what happened.
But then again, let's wait until I'm in a relationship before talking.

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
MUAHAHAHA! I'm an expert at this.
Both won't like me. So forget it la. Haha.
No, I'll pick the one who confronts me first. ((:
But in reality, you can't love two people at one go. It's not called love. It's called like.
But then again, they may be of equal importance to you so you never know.

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
I'm trying my best to. Really am.
But I have forgiven, the forgetting part takes time.

19. What do you want to tell the someone you like
Ermm... *turns bright red*
I actually want to tell him everything.
But most importantly, I wanna talk to him about that dream & about ex-san. D:
Yeah, cos I know he'll help me through it. <3

20. 5 people I have tagged:
-You
-you
-you
-you
-you

this space was initially filled with lots of words but i decided to just put in these words.
ihill. )<

yes, you guessed it.
i'm in that mood again.
have decided to shut up & get some shut eye & if it hurts me REAL BAD tmr, I shall go for a long run to clear out my mind.


ihill. )<

A quick post. (:


Happy Belated Birthday Daniel!
He's a Vikings SL from last year's red camp.
Okay, not many people know him from camp because very few people actually talked to him.
I also didn't until he added me on friendster through camp & then he added me on msn & then we talked.
He's a really nice guy & he gives me this big brother kinda feeling.
Hope that your relationship with your girl will last forever!
And all the best for your final year!!


Happy belated birthday momoko!
She's this super cute girl.
I still remember the first time I met her. BOOM! ((:
I think that she's one of the SC members I'm close to...
Stay cute! (:

Happy Birthday Teddy!
What should I say?
Err, like not really close to him leh.
Hardly talk to him, then again.... Most of the time, I interacted with him was when I was _________. ): *refuse to talk about it*
Anyway, he's the first SC member I actually met. He's a friendly guy.
Good luck yeah?

&&&

lastly,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE
JASMINE (:

This one, I got a lot to write about, having been in the same class as her for two years. (:
She's like... ONE OF THE COOLEST GIRLS IN 4A. Her date of birth also damn cool can. 11/11! Woah!
She's really bubbly & very friendly. Okay, I never really talked much to her but I like her. (:
She's really cool plus love her dress sense too (:
I think that, she's got personality & style.
Haha, I remember talking to her about the guy that I used to like. Haha, that was eons ago.
I miss you girl.
One of these days, I shall pop by closet to visit you. (: Promise.
ALL THE BEST!
;D




Okay, will blog about shit later. D:
Toodles.

Photoshoot on 8th Nov 2008

Here are some of the photos from the photoshoot on 7th November. (:

It's been ages since I had an actual photoshoot. The last time was... er... Cosfest? Okay, that's not counted as a real photoshoot.

Anyway, the photoshoot went pretty well. ((:
The photographers, Joe Hani & Fabian were really friendly & nice to work with.
It was really fun working with them because they were such humorous people.

Some of the photos don't have a watermark though. ):

I really like the photos and there's actually plenty more.

Self reflection:
I think that I should improve more in facial expressions because I realised that... I can't do seductive & bitchy facial expressions that well. *slaps hand on forehead* What I do realise is that I potray a sweet & innocent girl look instead. Okay, so maybe not really innocent. Don't puke.
I guess I should also watch my weight & my figure if I want to be succesful. I also have to improve on my skin.
I know I'm not perfect & I'm not a drop dead gorgeous beauty queen, so I must work harder if I want to succeed. (:
Hey, there's always room for improvement even if you are a top model. (:



Photos credits to Joe Hani, www.xkuisit.com.
Fabian's website is www.fabiancharles.com.

Do engage their services (:
They're really really nice to work with.


Btw, noticed anything about my hair?
Yeah, a new haircut. Well, not that new but still... It's new. Haha. I'm sprouting rubbish again.
And also, I highlighted it so now, it looks brighter. ;D












And yes, Anime Fest Asia 08 is coming soon!
It'll be held on 22 & 23 Nov 08. XD
And..
One of my favourite games/website/forum will be participating in this event!
Which one?
Isn't it obvious? GAIAONLINE!

Do support GAIAONLINE by visiting their booth. ;D
It'll be the first time Gaia will be participating in an event outside of US.
Visit the website, www.afa08.com for more details about Anime Fest Asia.


Do text me if you're going to the event. (:

DO I KNOW YOU?

Let's face it, I'm a blur person. ):
I really am. Not lying or anything.

Give me a reason to lie to your face.


I usually won't admit this but, I'm so blur that sometimes, I don't even know who you are.
Usually, I recognise faces very well. I remember people easily but...

The recent events have left me thinking whether or not I really really recognise them.

This event is very memorable.

Well. Jalan raya with the six-somes, ellysa, izzaty, atiqah & me.
We had just left my house and were about to head off to Z man's house when...
somebody called my name.
Funny. D:

Okay, we were at the traffic light.
4 of the guys were already across the road.
In front of Ami & I were, Ellysa, Izzaty & Atiqah.
Behind us, were Faizal & his gf.

Okay. So we were waiting for the greenlight, when I turned around and saw a bunch of malay guys. I looked at them but didn't really recognise who they were. So, I turned back to face the traffic light.

When all of a sudden, somebody shouted, "AISHAH!"

Since that's my name, I honestly had a reaction to it. Duh. In fact, I actually didn't even see anybody else around except us.

I looked at them again but I still cannot recognise who they were & honestly, I was shocked. So, I started thinking that it was my imagination.

Then we crossed the road and when we were over at the other side, we turned back & we saw the guys waving. Well, one of them. Plus, he was shouting my name.

Thinking and fearing he might be some insane guy, I didn't look at him and continued walking.

And so, later on...

I asked Faizal if he heard them calling my name. Ami of course heard it too... She even asked me if it was one of my friends. I told her, I don't know.

Faizal said, Yes & then he said that I probably knew one of them. He then went on to say that a guy called his name at my void deck. That guy even waved at him....


Huh. Strange.

I really don't know who that person was.
I thought about it.

It couldn't be anybody from Kranji Sec because, the guys would call out Faizal & not me. Even if they knew me, they would know Faizal better. Or they would know Ellysa & Izzaty better.

From my tuition?
Nah, cannot be.
Irfan won't call out my name. Zul probably can't even recognise me. Hidayat & Hafridz wouldn't call out my name either.

Mad friends?
Nah. Can't be. The only person who recognises me from Mad is Ridzwan & he won't even call my name.

So my last guess is...
Primary School friends.
Malay Guys.
Hmmm.
Considering my Primary school friends. There would be pretty few Malay guys in 6A-6E.
And these few, will never call or shout out my name. NEVER.
So it has to be the guys from 6F-6K.
I minus out 6J & 6K because... I doubt I've ever had a proper conversation with them.
So, it's 6F-6I.
Uh-huh...
I'm guessing, it must be somebody who is not from Kranji Sec. So yeah, I have those in mind.
I'm guessing, it's not from prefectorial board. So yah.
So, I have them.
And tell you something,
It couldn't have been Ahmad, Aliff or blah because I just saw them. D:
So yes.

And here's the strangest thing.
WHY CALL ME?
WHY NOT CALL TRACK-STAR FAIZAL?
WHY NOT ASSISTANT HEAD PREFECT IZZATY?
WHY NOT ONE OF THE POPULAR BASKTEBALL GIRLS, ELLYSA?

Why did that person call me?
I'm not really a nobody in my primary school but I'm not really a somebody either.
Compared to those three, I'm a nobody.
Izzaty & Ellysa have always been more popular because of their prefect status so the whole world would know them.
Faizal is well a male prefect, so they would know him too.
But me?
I'm the girl who got sent to Band 3 Malay Class because she sucked big time in malay.
That's what I'm known for. Aside from being ____________ & the catwalk girl D:

So, this person must know me very well and this person must be able to recognise me without glasses. So just who is this person?

And yes.



If I've not acknowlegded you in public, then I apologise. I didn't mean it.
Really sorry.



Anyway, something happened today. && I just realised it. So confusing really.

I'm hoping that


NOV & DEC
will be absolutely GREAT! :D


for now, let me put my head on my pillow & have dreams about Fluffy. ;D
Damn exhausted because I ate my medicine last night and the side-effects are still there.
To think I actually woke up at 10am this morning. ):
Oh well, so long as it heals & my eyebags disappear, then it'll be alright!



Red camp in another 2 weeks. hehe. cya :D

busy weekends ahead. as usual...

I am honestly lacking a life. D:
Boo hoo!
Not much things to do now plus I don't have much money. Fund me please?


Not really sure if I should go job-hunting. D:
I'm going to KL on 27th Dec and will only be back on 31st Dec. Woohoo~
Hopefully will get to see some New Year performances at Genting. ;D


Anyway, good news is that.
MCQ paper is next week.

And the week after that is, Red Camp 5. :D
Happy. Happy. (:
I'll be going NP to see you ;D

Then a good 2 weeks later, attending EOY & a family member's wedding. (Rmb to have piercing removed or else later my kurung or kebaya will knock it & it will hurt like F Hell. D:)

Then after that, wait until KL trip. Considering if I should really really work. D:


Anyway.
Will be spending this week catching dramas & watching movies ^^
Will do an update on them soon (:
Will be selling some of my clothes soon because I'm broke. Fund meeeee (:

For a moment, my heart skipped a beat.
I actually wondered if my results were released yet.
All because the JAE 2009 booklet was sitting on my dining table at home.


Apparently, it arrived in the mail this morning.
Right now, I'm really scared. I wonder if I'll make it. Make it to Mass Comm.
This year, the competitors are the current sec 5 batch and I wonder if I am any good.
I might get into Mass Comm if their English results aren't that good. (B4 & below) Unlikely. Majority will probably get a B3. ):
Raise standards leh. A for Mass Comm. Lol.
My A is safe already so yeah, I can wish for such things.

Still, I wonder. I've got 12 options again this year.
What am I going to pick?
There's quite a number of interesting new courses but... all I want is Mass Comm.
To tell you the truth, I really have interest for that course.
Only that course.
I can see myself being a deejay, a journalist etc.
I however, can't imagine myself doing a job in an office. It's really not my personality but my parents just want to force me.
They say it's more stable etc.
I get what they mean but to me, working where I like & doing what I like is the most important thing. I don't want to be stuck doing something I hate for the rest of my life. I'll probably screw up my life. And of course, end up hating my parents. D:


I'm still thinking. What are my 12 options?
Number 1 is confirmed, Mass Comm.

God please bless my soul.
Heal these wounds of mine & just let me recover in peace...




I'm trying so desperately for us to be friends.
I really am, just that I don't know how to anymore.

I should have learnt from my mistake and I should never have let it get this far.
The last time with Psycho was bad enough.. Really bad. D:
Do you really want me to wait another 2 years before we can reconcile & be friends?
Heck, even now... Things between me & Psycho aren't going too well. The two of us, we still... We still find it tough to talk. We try to forget about what happened back then... Still... We're feeling like strangers...
What about you & me?
I don't want to loose you. I don't want to loose Psycho either.
I'm scared. I truly am.


I used to think that a relationship between friends would really be nice but now I see the risks.

I should have just said, I think its better we remain friends back then.

My mistake... I'm sorry.


Strangely, right now.. All I want is to hug Psycho & tell him everything that's been going on. For some reason, I always think back to him just when everything falls apart. Each time. D:
What's wrong? I don't know... i really don't.

Now that my exams are done done done, I have all the FREE TIME IN THE WORLD.
Ok. Well I didn't exactly include my Sci MCQ but yeah, there's a 0.25 chance of getting each question right. I'm using probability. Woah. Shocker huh.


Okay.
I'm supposed to be looking for a job but yours truly is damn lazy like shit so I think I should just sit and home and bum away. D:
Broke though.

Oh well, this is what I'll be spending my free time doing...

1. Get Akipon ready. XD

2. Do my Free Hugs sign since I am attending EOY.

3. Get cloth. (For skirt & clothes. I've got new designs & I think I should be able to sew with my mom's help...)

4. Go drama-ing.

5. Catch some shut-eye during the day & keep myself hydrated. (most impt if I wanna look good)



Since I actually spent most of money on my bling, I'm really broke. Sighs. Need to get more stuff for my decora. Hmm. Anybody want to go Arab St, Chinatown & Spotlight soon? I want to get my stuff asap. Need to get ready. Thank goodness I have loads of paint & thread at home. ((:

It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care

I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
Thats coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you

I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
Once upon a song

Now I know your not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I can tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Cause I liked the view
When there was me and you

I can't believe that
I could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn't mind

Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you



~

Had Bellydance trial lesson today.

I came half an hour late though due to rain & my usual lateness.. Initially planned to leave the house at 10am but had a little bit of breakfast hence I left at 10.30am.

So I reached at 11.30am (including time taken to find the studio)

Missed out the head movement. Bahh. Not as if I can do it anyway.

I was really bad at shoulder shimmy. D:
Then again my shoulders are really tensed.
The hip movement thing was okay. A bit tired out la although I liked it.
My hand leg coordination a bit bad. Rofl. Okay la. It's just okay. Just that sometimes I move my butt to the wrong side. DX

And chest!!! ;D
My chest pops(: Left, right, up, down!
Haha. Yeah, I can only do this right. Why?
Cos whenever I dance, I'll always use my chest. XP
Obsceneeeee~ :3


And my butt is okay. XD hehe. Need a butt. D:


Afterwards.

Met Eve & Ami at city hall. A bit confusing D:
Certain things happened la.

Then went to Fort Canning for SC halloween picnic. Didn't really eat as usual. Gave them my brownies & well spent the entire day with Eve & Ami again.

I don't really know what to say because I honestly don't.

Well. Like that la.

And a lot of Oh MUMMY! haha. XD

swinging is fun yo! but i don't like hitting my head. D:
i bet he sneezed and coughed a lot today. XP
i'm talking about him too much...



Okay. I'm signing off because I just can't say anymore.


oh & i'll blog about my new bling soon.
planning to get another on my ear (left side). maybe a tragus.
or a helix.
still planning.
am loving tongue piercings too but nah. I know I can't pierce my tongue.
And anyway, my tongue is cool as it is.
It's already "deformed" in its own way. lol. normal but yeah.


okay off to watch dramas now! (: