Results were released and I honestly don't feel too good about it. I got into the Engineering Common Programme and honestly, I don't think I'll do too well in Engineering. Well, I'm considering getting into Audio-visual technology after the first semester. Basically, because that's my interest and I'm better at that than other stuff.
My parents are against it though. Then again, why wouldn't they be?
However, I think I should just try it. I may not be as good with machines and tools and such. I know, my funeral will be pretty soon because I'm just bad at Maths and stuff. Still, if there's something about me that I realised... It's the fact that I actually like Maths. Yeah, I don't do well at it but it's mainly because I choose not to & I have always hated working hard.

This is a secret of mine. I'm afraid of studying because...
I studied so hard until I fell very sick for a week & my brain nearly fried. This was back in primary school.

After that, you've never seen me study.
My textbooks look brand new. I swear. Except for the occasional doodles, I have never used them for homework. Mother Tongue is an exception.
They're only wet because of the rain & half the time, my books are in school. Meaning, I don't study.
Hell. I only studied in Sec 4. The last 2 weeks before Os if that's helpful..

I guess that's my mistake.
Not studying. Not working hard enough.


Lazy too.


Sighs.
Really not feeling well.
Sick. Sorethroat, had gastric last night. And now I feel like puking once again.

Don't let it happen again. Please.

And after all that I went through, I realise... I want to continue writing and write like I've never written before.


And perhaps continue with Maths in my future poly. Wherever I get into.


And to you, all the best too (:


Thanks to all those who've been supporting me & telling me not to give up. (:
Thank you.



I need my rest. Really. Stop the nightmares.
This girl needs her rest.

i cant live when living is without you