Am I supposed to be upset?
I doubt it. I already had this feeling that I won't get in so why do I even bother?

I think it's really the time I face the music & face reality. I'm just not good enough for it. And though I really want it badly, but it doesn't want me. Then who am I to complain.

Let's face it. I didn't work hard enough for it. I don't deserve it.
My fault. Let's get back to reality.


Goodbye dreams of being a newspaper editor, hello reality.
Oh well. Doesn't matter much does it?
My life's already half screwed.


What am I to look forward to? What is it that I'm searching for really?
What do I love?

Really. Mom should have just sent me off to some Arts school last year. And though it would have been a pain in the ass, well... At least I'll be happy being me...

Kinda pathetic really because I didn't really pick the choices based on my dreams and everything.
My real dream... HAHA. This is gonna be a shocker..
Is to just perform.
Uhh. Yeah, I love acting & singing & dancing. Although I can't sing. And well, my parents don't even support me.
So yeah. Sad huh. ))):
Oh well. Whatever.

Get back to reality. That dream won't ever come true.
Hahaha.
Yay.

I'm not emo. So don't worry.

I guess my new dream now is to... Well, loose WEIGHT! And then continue with the modelling stuff...
And then get signed on by a real agency like Elite or something. Although making it big in Sg is tough especially when I've got eczema... )):
Oh well. That will take years but who cares.


Now what.
Sit & rot & wait.


Sighs. Goodness. Just forget it.
I'll be fine and I'll continue to surprise people with my abilities. Don't you worry.
If I get into IT or Engineering. Don't worry. I'll do my best. I love a challenge. And this is it. (: